Re: FIC: Home, Sweet Home, Part 1

["Pat Kelly"]

Do I have to say MORE?

Later

Pat

"When I held that gun, I felt an incredible surge of power. Like God must
feel when he's holding a gun.." (Homer J. Simpson)

"You've been fighting evil here for three years, and I've helped some, and
now we're supposed to decide what we want to do with our lives. And I just
realized that that's what I want to do. Fight evil, help people. I mean, I
think it's worth doing. And I don't think you do it because you have to.
It's a good fight, Buffy, and I want in."

"I kind of love you."
(Willow Rosenberg, Buffy Summers, BTVS)

"Don't.."
"What? Don't love you? I didn't know I got a choice in that."
(Angel, Buffy Summers, BTVS)
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Sent: Thursday, December 02, 1999 1:55 PM
Subject: [buffyloveswillow] FIC: Home, Sweet Home, Part 1


> From: "jbstories _" <jbstories@xxxxxxxxxxx>
>
> Home, Sweet Home
>
> ----------------------------------------------------------------------
> By Janine (jbstories@xxxxxxxxxxx)
> Disclaimer: None of these characters are mine, they belong to Joss Whedon
> and Mutant Enemy. I will not be making any money etc, yadda, yadda.
> Rating: PG-13
> Synopsis: This is a continuation to my story "The chemicals between us".
> ----------------------------------------------------------------------
>
> Buffy walked the familiar hallway shifting the bag on her shoulder.
> Stopping in front of a familiar door she stopped and smiled. Home. Or at
> least her new college version of it. A version she happened to be quite
> fond of actually. Opening the door she stepped in and dropped her bag.
It
> was good to be back.
>
> Willow looked up from her book when she heard the door open.
>
> "Buffy," she exclaimed happily a smile covering her face.
>
> "In the flesh," Buffy said smiling and heading over to the desk.
> "Actually," she corrected. "in her new shoes," she continued wiggling one
> of her feet. "You like?"
>
> "I see you had a good time with your Dad's Gold card," Willow said.
>
> "And his Visa, and his Master Card, and."
>
> "His American Express?" Willow guessed.
>
> "Never leave for the mall without it," Buffy agreed with a grin.
>
> "So tell me what happened," Willow said standing up and moving over to her
> bed, while Buffy picked up her bag.
>
> "As you wish," Buffy responded following Willow over to her bed.
>
> They were lying on Willow's bed. Buffy was stretched out across the foot
of
> the bed with her legs dangling over the edge while Willow sat up at the
top
> of the bed by the head board sitting with her knees drawn up to her chest.
>
> "What about Angel?" Willow asked when Buffy ceased in her oration for a
> moment. Buffy had talked about everything from the what the salesclerk
who
> sold her her shoes was wearing, to the colour of her fathers kitchen wear,
> but she still hadn't said anything about her ex yet.
>
> "Well, that curse thing must follow him around, cause Cordelia IS his
> secretary," Buffy said not taking her eyes off of the ceiling. "From what
I
> heard she's the same old C.C," Buffy continued. "I almost feel sorry for
> L.A." When Willow didn't respond Buffy turned her head to look at her.
> "But that's not what you wanted to know, is it?"
>
> "Not exactly," Willow answered. "Although that was on the list."
>
> "And Angel's at the top of that list?" Buffy asked.
>
> "Right now he is," Willow responded.
>
> "Alright," Buffy agreed with a little half sigh. "I accused him of
sulking
> around in the shadows stalking me, and told him that it wasn't at all
> kosher. Then I told him that it wasn't his responsibility to protect me,
> and more importantly that I didn't want him to protect me. Unless of
course
> it was a matter of life and death, which that incident was, but it was the
> principle behind it.the sulking and everything. Then a demon busted
through
> his window, he killed it, and I left," Buffy said never taking her eyes
off
> of Willow's.
>
> "That's it?" Willow asked finding it hard to believe whatever happened
> lasted only five minutes. But, despite her skepticism she found herself
> hoping that it was all that happened. Willow liked Angel on an individual
> basis, but when he was around Buffy those feeling turned decidedly less
> friendly.
>
> "That's completely it," Buffy responded with a note of finality in her
> voice.
>
> "And you didn't get the slightest bit of happies seeing him again?" Willow
> asked possessed by some sort of masochistic desire. She didn't really
want
> to know if Buffy had gotten the happies, but at the same time she did. It
> was a vicious cycle.
>
> Buffy looked pensive, and thoughtful for a moment before responding.
>
> "Not really," Buffy responded softly. "I mean, he's always going to be a
> fine specimen of maleness, but I didn't really feel anything except for."
> she kind of trailed off after that.
>
> "Except for what?" Willow asked.
>
> "Sad," Buffy said softly. "I didn't want to be there. Seeing him, being
> there, it was extremely depressing. I know that sounds really terrible,
> really, really, terrible seeing as how were went through hell together,
> literally, but the moment I walked in it was like this dark cloud
descended
> upon me," Buffy continued. "I guess I had forgotten what it felt like,"
she
> went on rapidly. "Am I a horrible person? I mean, at one point I was
> considering spending my life with him."
>
> When Willow heard the self-depreciating tone in Buffy's voice she moved
from
> her position in the bed so that she was lying beside Buffy.
>
> "You're not a bad person, I repeat, not, a bad person," Willow said
firmly.
> "And well, know I say this with the best of intentions, but well, Angel
has
> never been a ray of sunshine, what with the black, black and more black.
> Not to mention the whole cursed for eternity thing," Willow continued. "I
> think that maybe you've gotten used to bright colors. There's a lot of
> fusha on the campus."
>
> Buffy smiled momentarily before turning serious once again.
>
> "Whatever the reason things have changed, it's like.it's just.not like
> before," Buffy said struggling to find the right words. "The way it is
now,
> him there and me here. That's the way it should be. I'm more certain of
it
> mow than ever before," Buffy continued turning her head until she was
> looking Willow in the eye. "I hated him for leaving me at first, I was
> scared because being with him was all I had known for so long.
But.leaving,
> taking off and going to L.A, was the best thing he could have done for
both
> of us."
>
> "You're happier now?" Willow asked holding Buffy's gaze.
>
> "Yeah," Buffy said softly. "I am."
>
> Willow felt a smile working it's way across her face and turned her head
so
> that Buffy couldn't see her. The summersault's her stomach had been doing
> since Buffy left for L.A. had finally stopped.
>
> "How are you doing, Will?" Buffy asked watching her friend. Since they
had
> moved in together, Buffy had become considerably more proficient at
reading
> Willow's emotions. Well, the fact that they were now living together, and
> that Buffy paid rabid attention to anything Willow. The emotions her
friend
> was sending out currently were really jumbled, and that usually meant
> issues.
>
> "A lot better now that you're back," Willow responded without thinking.
She
> was about to start regretting her answer, but she saw Buffy flash her a
> beatific smile and was instantly glad that she had said it.
>
> "That's good," Buffy responded. "Because it's good to be back," she
> continued. "You sure you're okay?"
>
> "Definitely," Willow responded. "Just too much quality Xander and Anya
> time," Willow continued making a face. "You're lucky you got out of here
> before Xander fully recovered from his Syphilis. It got scary after
> that.really, really, scary.
>
> "Was Anya thinking about having sex with him again?" Buffy asked with a
> sardonic grin remembering the oh so unappetizing conversation they had
been
> a party to at the dig.
>
> "Not only did she think about, but she tried to do," Willow responded
making
> a face. Buffy could see the grumble, grumble written all over Willow's
> face.
>
> "Poor Willow," Buffy said patting her on the top of her head.
>
> "Poor, poor, Willow," Willow responded turning her head to the side until
> her forehead was resting against Buffy's shoulder.
>
> They stayed like that for long, silent moments. Both of them reveling in
> the closeness of their bond. They were both aware of what they were
> feeling, but were in doubt of what the other was. What they did know for
> sure, however, was that they shared an affection that was tangible, and no
> matter what the other may or may not have been felling, they had that, and
> as long as they had that it'd be enough.
>
> ===========================================================
>
> Buffy leaned her arms on the sill of the window and stuck her head
outside.
> The air outside wasn't exactly cold, but it was most definitely better
than
> inside the room. It'd been a week since she'd gotten back from L.A, and
she
> wasn't really sure how or why, but she could feel that things had changed
> between her and Willow. They had gotten closer, more comfortable around
> each other. The tension that had been there after the bad beer incident
had
> faded into the background, and Buffy was wishing her memories of the night
> in question would fade as well. The reason she was sticking her head out
of
> the window, just like she had the night before, was because she kept on
> thinking about that night. She could feel Willow's lips on her, feel her
> body pressing against Willow's, feel her warmth. The slightest things
would
> cause the feelings to rise in her, and then she couldn't put them back.
>
> It was frigging irritating. Not for the first time she had gotten herself
> worked up into quite a state, and again not for the first time there was
> nothing that she could do about it. She couldn't get relief from the
person
> she wanted, and she couldn't even do it herself, because she made too much
> noise during the act of auto-erotic exhilaration, and couldn't chance,
well,
> the chance.
>
> Buffy took a deep breath then released it softly. Willow was standing
> behind her, she could feel it.
>
> "Is there something out there?" Willow asked curiously.
>
> "Trees, stars.more tress," Buffy responded turning around.
>
> "You know where else they have those?" Willow asked.
>
> "Trees?" Buffy asked. Willow nodded. "Where?"
>
> "Everywhere," the hacker responded.
>
> "Funny," Buffy said moving over to sit on her bed.
>
> "Are you okay?" Willow asked taking a seat beside Buffy. "You seem kind
> of.distracted." Buffy looked down at her lap. "And your ears are all
red."
> When Willow said that Buffy's hands flew straight to her ears. Her ears
> were red, great, Buffy thought. Only two things made her ears turn red.
> Extreme cold, and extreme arousal.
>
> "I'm fine," Buffy responded with a smile. "Really."
>
> "If you say so," Willow said thinking that she should probably move since
> she was practically sitting on top of Buffy, but not really wanting to
move
> at all.
>
> "I say so," Buffy responded.
>
> ============================================================
>
> Buffy ducked and turned around raising her hand blocking one of the
vampires
> intended blows. The beast growled and Buffy smiled.
>
> "Sorry, please try again," Buffy said ducking down and sweeping the vamps
> legs out from underneath it. "The uglier they are, they harder they
fall,"
> Buffy said turning her attention away from the vampire on the ground to
one
> of his buddies.
>
> Buffy round-housed the vamp behind her, then punched him in the stomach.
> When the beast bent over in pain Buffy elbowed him on the back knocking
him
> to the ground.
>
> "Buffy, behind you!" Willow yelled from her DSP (designated safety
> position).
>
> "I'm on it," Buffy yelled back flashing a smile at her companion.
> "Thanks."
>
> Willow was about to respond when she sensed a presence behind her.
Turning
> her head slightly to the side she stopped a vampire closing in on her from
> behind some nearby bushes. Moving to the side she picked up a nearby
metal
> garbage container and threw it at the vampire closing in on her. She was
> about to call for Buffy when she looked over and saw the Slayer over come
by
> vamps. They were swarming her like locusts.
>
> By the time Willow remembered about the vampire that had been coming after
> her he had grabbed her and pushed her up against a tree.
>
> "Looky, what Rufus found," the vampire said tightening the hold he had on
> Willow's throat. "The Slayer's little bitch," he continued snaring.
Willow
> raised one of her eyebrows.
>
> "Little?" she managed to squeak out. She was at least an inch taller than
> Buffy. She wasn't Buffy's 'little' anything.
>
> "Rufus wants a taste, if it's good enough for the Slayer it's good enough
> for me," continued.
>
> Willow ignored him instead concentrating on the vampires in the distance
> that Buffy was fighting with. She had managed to dispatch of a few of
them,
> but there were still so many. That's when Willow saw it. Buffy was
wearing
> some stakes in her hair, those ones that looked like chop sticks.
>
> "It's gonna be so sweet sucking your." Rufus was saying.
>
> "Could you do me favor, and just be quiet for five seconds?" Willow asked.
> Rufus growled, but once again she ignored him. If this was going to work
> she had to concentrate completely.
>
> Focusing on Buffy's head, Willow managed to mentally remove on of the
stakes
> in Buffy hair. Then, concentrating on the vampire closet to Buffy, Willow
> sent the stake flying straight into his heart. Seeing one of their
comrades
> explode into dust distracted the other vamps, and Buffy with Willow's
> assistance was able to dust the rest of them rather quickly.
>
> Turning to face the last vampire, Buffy pulled out her stake.
>
> "This time, stay dead!" she said shoving it into this heart and watching
as
> he exploded. "Two thumbs up for." Buffy started to say turning to
> congratulate Willow when she saw her friend being pushed up against a tree
> by a vamp.
>
> "Willow!" Buffy shouted sprinting over to the tree.
>
> By the time Buffy the tree Willow was slumped over in the vampires grasp,
> and the beasts head was lowered to her neck. Buffy reached out and
grabbed
> the vampire by his shirt pulling him away from Willow and flinging him
onto
> the ground.
>
> "I swear to God, that if you finished what you were doing, eternal
damnation
> will seem like a picnic compared to what I'll do to you," Buffy said icily
> staring a hole into the demon.
>
> "I'm hungry," Rufus complained, thinking that he really should have just
> gotten on with eating.
>
> "Well, you shouldn't play with your food," Buffy said closing in on him.
> "Gives you indigestion," she said shoving the stake into his heart, then
> turning and running back over to Willow.
>
> Willow lay crouched on the ground, she wasn't moving. Buffy kneeled down
> beside her and gently tipped her head up so that she could see her face.
>
> "Will?" Buffy said softly. "Come on Will, open your eyes," Buffy urged
> rubbing the hackers cheek. The Slayer could clearly she the marks left by
> the vampires hand on her friends neck.
>
> "Come on Willow," Buffy said beginning to panic. "Wake up," she continued
> lying Willow down on the ground. After pausing for a fraction of a second
> Buffy tilted Willow's head back and used her free hand to open her mouth.
> Leaning down she brought their lips together and blew into Willow's mouth.
> Pulling back she freed her hand and started to pump on Willow's chest.
> "Wake up dammit!" Buffy yelled getting increasingly agitated.
>
> She leaned back down, blowing into Willow's mouth then pulled up and
started
> pumping on her chest again. She continued this a few more times still
> getting no result. She could feel tears falling down her face, but she
> couldn't concentrate on that at the moment.
>
> "You wake up!" Buffy yelled. "Right now, goddammit," she continued still
> pumping on Willow's chest. "Don't you leave me," Buffy continued.
> "Please," she said lowering her forehead to Willow's. "Please, don't
leave
> me.please.don't leave me," she continued softly.
>
> There was still no reaction.
>
> Buffy raised up her head after a moment and looked down at the pale face
> below her. Willow was not dead, Buffy refused to believe it. Willow was
> not, could not be dead. It wasn't suppose to happen this way. Willow was
> not suppose to die before her, the fight Buffy fought was not Willow's to
> fight and more importantly NOT Willow's to die for. She hadn't even told
> her how much she loved her. She hadn't gotten a chance to tell her that
she
> was her life.
>
> "Wil-low!!!!!!!!!!!" Buffy yelled out into the air, slamming her hand onto
> her chest.
>
> There was still no response.
>
> Buffy's body heaved, her body overcome by tears. Her head dropped to
> Willow's chest, sobbing.
>
> That's when she felt it. A slight lifting and depressing of the chest
below
> her.
>
> "Bu-ff-y," Willow said softly. Her voice barely audible, so soft anyone
but
> Buffy would have missed it.
>
> "Will?" Buffy said precariously raising her head up so that she could see
> Willow's face.
>
> "Did we win?" Willow asked, her gaze still unfocused. "Cause I think we
> won, but I'm not really feeling like the winner over here."
>
> "We won," Buffy said drawing Willow into an embrace.
>
> "Oh," Willow said, sinking into Buffy's embrace. "Good."
>
> ===========================================================
>
> End of Part 1
> (to be continued)
>
> Janine
>
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