Fic_Sometimes things change

[Rodrigo]

Sometimes things change.

Author:Rodrigo(myself03@xxxxxxxxxx)
Rating:PG-13
Spoilers:Few basic facts about the fourth season.No details.
Author's note: This is my second fic, and as you can see , i still haven't
got any better.I wrote this after spending the last three days watching
Disney classics with my girlfriend's little brother, so if you want to blame
someone blame Walt Disney(if that damn lion doesn't sleep i'm going to
kill him) : )
Feedback:Always.It's like that Bryan Adams song "Baby won't you lie to
me..."
Note:I suck at this writing thing, i admit that.I just can't let leave you
guys hanging just because some authors whose name i won't
mention*glares at the authors of Wiccan gets the wiggins, Home sweet home,
Chanukmas,Interludis...* so, if you can also blame them : )
Now, this story is kind of weird, it doesn't make any sense, but...Also,
this wasn't beta-read, english is not my thing, so if one of you can please
do me this favor and beta-read this puppy for me i would appreciate it .





I'm lyin' here with you
Listening to the rain
Smilin' just to see
The smile upon your face

And these are the moments
I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

And looking in your eyes
And seeing all I need
And everything you are
Is everything to me

And these are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And there are the moments
I know all I need is this
I've got all I've waited for

I could not ask for more
Than this time together
Could not ask for more
Than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I have has come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
And here with you here with me
Oh, oh, oh

And these are the moments
I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more
Than this time together
Could not ask for more
Than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I have has come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
And here with you here with me
Oh, oh, oh

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
Cause it's all I'm waiting for
And I could not ask for more

(Edwin McCain-I could not ask for more)

Willow and Buffy were walking through the dark streets of
Sunnydale,hand in hand, after having just come back from a
night of fun in the cemetery.It had been a slow night, only three vamps,
three beginners that provided more amusement than fear
with their "I'm gonna kill you " threats.Freshman, always so full of
themselves Willow thought as she remembered the
newbies arrogance.Of course , she alone would never have a chance against
any of them, but that was why Buffy was The
Slayer and she was the genius sidekick.Buffy slayed and she stood back,
coming up with the ideas.We work well that
way.She concluded, a small smile making a way across her lips.

The girls, each lost in their own little world , were quietly heading
towards the dorm, where they'd have their usual
Willow/Buffy night.They had created this Willow/Buffy night thing after Oz
left, Buffy was trying to cheer Willow up, planning
things that we would do during the day, how we were going to spend the night
and stuff like that.After that it just caught on, and
without them even realizing we had made of that friday nights their little
tradition.This friday they had decided to stay in, they
would go on patrol and them order something and watch a few movies that had
been chosen earlier that day.To many people it
would be considered a common thing, nothing really big, but to them it was
extremely important.These moments gave them a
chance to relax, be themselves, and get a little closer.

It had taken them less than a year to become best friends, true best
friends.Since the day they met their relationship had
changed, evolved, until they finally got to the point that they were
now.They had fought, suffered, passed through some hard
times, but they survived, and with each challenge their bound only got
stronger.Willow had never had that before , not even with
Xander.Something like what she and Buffy had, Willow had come to realize,
didn't happen very often, just to a feel luck
individuals, and she was one of these few.When she was with Xander she felt
safe, loved, she knew she could trust him and that
he would give his life for her in a heart beat, but it was not the same
thing.Buffy made her feel all those things, and more.With
Buffy she could be herself, she could do and say things that even Xander
would find a little unusual.Buffy had come into her life
and had made her see things that she had never thought about before.Not
only she changed Willow but allowed herself to be
changed by Willow.They had become a part of each other, a part that they
would never let go.

There was only a little problem in all this: the love.As the time
passed and these changes took place, something else was also
transforming inside them, albeit a little slowly, but in a way that would
turn their lives upside down.Their hugs , that before had
been a source of comfort now stirred a storm of emotions inside of them,
the friendly touches caused a swift increase in their
heart beat, the smiles now had the power to make the worst of days a little
brighter and the their eyes became some kind of
mirror to their souls, showing all these changes that were occurring between
the two of them in a simple glance.

Buffy could still remember the moment she realized that Willow had
stopped being only her best friend to become
something else, something far more complicated.They were at their room,
Willow in the computer and Buffy reading a book in
her bed.It was an ordinary moment, but all of the sudden, as Buffy looked up
from her book and glanced at her best friend,
everything changed.At the moment she didn't know why she was looking, she
only knew that the moment her eyes fell upon
Willow something inside her clicked.It was like from that moment on she had
become hyper aware when it came to
Willow.Images of the hacker, of them, started running through her head,
moments that until a few minutes ago were considered
meaningless were seeing in a whole new light, gained a whole new
perspective.

The hug they shared after The Slayer came back from her
'i-sent-Angel-to-hell-so-i got-to-run-away' trip, the hurt look in
her eyes when she thought that she was being replaced by Faith, the pain
that cursed through Buffy's entire body when she saw
Vamp-Willow and the joy she felt when she saw the real Willow , the
willingness she felt in exchanging the future of the world
for Willow ,these and a lot other moments were seem with another set of
eyes.Buffy dind't know if it could be considered the
eyes of someone in love, but she liked to think of it like that

As these thoughts of her friend ran trough Buffy's head she kind of
disconnected herself from the outside world.She was no
longer looking at that Willow that was sitting on the computer, even though
her unblinking eyes were giving this impression, she
was looking at a Willow from other times.The Slayer couldn't really explain,
but it was like she was not looking at the physical
Willow, but at what she was, what she meant to Buffy.

Buffy knew she shouldn't be surprised ,some would say it was right
under her nose, but in that moment she realised that
Willow was the most important person in her life, the one she cared about
the most, the one she...the one she loved more
deeply.Her thoughts went back to when she first met the redhead, so shy,
ready to help, from the first time Buffy saw her she
felt something growing inside her heart, some kind of love, not passionate
love, but still a very strong love that has only
grown over the years.So much has changed since them.Don't get me wrong,
she's still the helpful girl she was back them, but
she's no longer that shy girl that couldn't talk to boys and that seemed to
accept everything others seemed to throw at her.She's
Willow Rosemberg now, a brave, intelligent , self-confident strong women ,
and even if she sometimes reverts back to her old
self, it's only for a few minutes, and then she's back to being this
wonderful woman that she is.Buffy's best friend, and the
person whom, she realized with a start, had made her way to my heart and
fixed permanent location.

Oh, the 'i'm in love with her' bit was quite interesting.Buffy was
there, trying to understand why she was having these
thoughts, why her mind was being filled with Willow related things when she
heard Willow's voice calling out to her.Apparently
she had noticed The Slayer's distracted state, because the next thing Buffy
knew the hacker was sitting by her side, a concerned
look on her face, waving her hand in front of of the other girl.Buffy came
back to reality and that's when the fun started.She was
a little disoriented at first , so she just lowered her head and rubbed her
eyes, trying to get a grip.Willow delicately put her hand
on The Slayer's arm, and the second that Willow's bare skin touched hers,
Buffy felt a torrent of emotions running through her
body.Her heart started beating faster, her skin got all warm, hands all
sweaty and she felt her soul fill with love.She didn't want
to believe, she couldn't believe .She thinks a few things about her best
friend , remembers a few moments, and boom, she was
in love .That was not possible , things didn't happen like that , not in
real life, anyway, besides, she loved Angel , right? That's
what she kept telling myself, as if she wished really hard things would go
back to the way they were, but all of this was
useless.When i finally raised her head and her eyes found Willow's she
realized that it was possible , it was true, but most
importantly, it was there for quite some time, she just hadn't allowed
herself to see it, to feel it, not until now.

Buffy didn't sleep that night.The first few hours she just lay in
my bed and stared at the ceiling, and in her minds eyes she
saw them, she remembered the things they went trough together, how they, no
matter what , always were there for each other.It
was kind of interesting actually, she always knew that they would stick
together but now this knowledge gave her some sort of
comfort.It was like a guaranty that their friendship would last forever, no
matter how she dealt with these feelings.

Buffy was brought back from her own little world when she heard
Will murmur something and then turn to her side.She
turned her attention to Willow.She looked like a little angel, her little
angel.Face all relaxed, a smile playing on the corner of her
lips, hands under her cheek and body all curled up.Sure, Buffy had seen
Willow sleeping tons of times, but she never really SAW it.To Buffy , Willow
was, at that moment, the picture of perfection.All The Slayer could think of
was how much she wanted to be that blanket, how she wished to wrap her arms
around the other girl, keep her safe and warm, how she longed to feel the
warmth of the redhead... , how much too wanted to be loved by Willow.

That was about two months ago, since then so much has happened,
Buffy slept with Parker, became CaveSlayer,Oz and
Willow broke up, Spike tried to bite Willow, Spike became their ally, they
learned that some kind of military group seems to
have watched too much movies about secret projects and decided to create
their own, Hellmouth style, she went to see Angel,
it was a busy period, Buffy was glad for that.It gave her things to think
about, non-Willow related things.The first few days after
she learned about the new turn the feelings she had for her best friend had
taken she started acting in very un-Buffy like way.She
avoided Willow and the others, took a lot of time coming back from patrol
so her friend would already be asleep and always
left before Will woke up, things.Needless to say Willow soon noticed and
even called Buffy on it.

She was all unsure at first, not really knowing how to start, but
then her resolve face took place and she went on with
it.She sat down beside Buffy, took her friend's hand in hers and gave it a
little kiss.The Slayer, extremely surprised, just looked
at her with an astonished look on my face, but she just looked right back ,
without saying a word for a few minutes.

"Buffy, i've spent the entire afternoon researching what i was
going to tell you once you got here, i even wrote it down,
see," she said, pointing to a paper that was neatly folded over her
desk.Buffy took a quick look them turned back to face
her.She knew that Willow was probably going to complain about the way she
had being avoiding her, and as much as The
Slayer hated to admit it, a part of her had a certain pleasure on that.It
was nice to know that Willow cared, that she was
missed.But all those thoughts were quickly swept away as she caught that
stern look on the redhead's face.She continued on
"We've been best friends for almost four years now.We tell each other
everything, or at least i like to think so.We know each
other secrets, but more importantly,we know each other.So, as someone who
knows you i know that you have a problem, and i
also know that the problem has something to do with me." Buffy was about to
interrupt her, to deny it, but she just put her
fingers over soft lips and whispered in a low voice" Shh, please, let me
finish"

"You don't need to deny it, in fact, you shouldn't deny it, seeing
as we both know that i'm right.Buf, i'm not here to accuse
you or to try to force you to tell me something you don't want to.What i'm
here for is to tell you is that no matter what it is that is
making you feel that you have to avoid me can't really be that bad.And even
if it is, i know that we will be able to go through it,
together, just like always.I love you, nothing you can say or do will ever
change that."

Buffy couldn't hold it any longer, she gave up and let the tears
fall down, burning her cheeks.She felt strong arms wrapping
around her , a soft hand patting her hair while reassuring words were
whispered in her ear.Willow loved her, She loved
her.Maybe not in the same way Buffy loved her friend, but maybe it was all
she could ever get, and she was going to cherish
it.After that they just lay in bed, just holding each other.Buffy didn't
tell Willow her secret, she still wasn't ready, but Willow
understood, and for awhile everything went back to normal.Well, not really
normal, but as close to it as they could ever get in
Sunnyhell.

Then came Parker.Buffy didn't really know why , maybe because he
was there, maybe because she wanted to forget
about Angel, Willow, everything, she only knew that she had ended up
sleeping with him.After that she finally learned that men
don't have to be demons to mistreat you after they get what they want, and
that vampires and other creatures of the night aren't
the only ones without a soul.

Oh, and let's not forget the return The Slayer had to her
origins.That experience would make a good book, if she could
actually could remember anything about it.The only thing Buffy did remember
was spending the entire saturday afternoon trying
to erase the drawings from the walls.She even tried to ask the others about
it, but all they said was that she was a aggressive but
loyal neanderthal.She would even accept this explanation, it was not like
she really needed to know, but there was something
that really got to her.Every time she talked to Willow about that period or
asked her things she blushed and got all nervous.Buffy
had a really bad feeling about that, especially considering that after
everyone was gone the only ones that were left were the two
of them, alone, in their room.Well, she'd just have to wait and see if she
could remember with time, Giles said that sooner or
later these memories would end up coming back.

All these were quite important events, events that made Buffy
forget about things, at least for awhile.But it didn't last long,
Oz and Willow broke up, Oz went away and she was left with a depressed and
heartbroken Willow.As some would say, that
that was coming for a long time, as much as you try to avoid something, it
will always come back to haunt you.And that's
exactly what happened to them.The werewolf issue was going to pop up sooner
or later, and as it always happen on the
Hellmouth, it brought on death and other disastrous consequences.Oz gave in
to his animal instincts and they both had to deal
with the results of it.Willow was devastated, she trusted Oz, and even
though she, deep inside, knew it was not really his fault,
she still felt a little betrayed, not for the cheating, but because he
left her.When Buffy learned that Oz had cheated her friend,
that he had caused Willow, her Willow to suffer to the point that she almost
let herself be killed made The Slayer want to kill
him.

She liked Oz, she really did, but things had been different for some
time.He was no longer 'Oz, Willow's boyfriend and nice
guy' he had become 'Oz, Willow's boyfriend that keeps her away from me, that
kisses the lips i should be kissing, holds the
hands i should be holding...' kind of person, and i had a problem with that.
But Buffy lived with it, he made Willow happy and
that was all that mattered to her.Some may think that she's just being the
jealous girl, but Buffy was glad he had left.She lost a
friend, Willow lost the person she loved, but it was all for the best.Willow
and Oz had went ahead in their relationship without
realizing that there were still things to be worked out, matters to be
settled , and no matter how hard they tried, they could never
deal with the past and present at the same time.Now, Willow is alone again
and she now has to learn how to go on.Buffy only
hoped she could help her friend in that process.

Well,needless to say, that break up put a new twist in Buffy and
Willow's relationship.Buffy was not very proud of it, but
there were times, the smallest of the moments, that she was glad that all
these things happened.She knew it was pretty selfish of
her, that there were people suffering, but everytime she spent with Willow,
every time her friend rested her head on her shoulder
and fell asleep, every time she was able to make her smile , it was like a
dream coming true.In these moments she truly let go, she let herself love
Willow freely, without thinking about what may happen, only savoring the
moment.

For quite awhile Willow was the picture of someone who had lost the
love of a lifetime.She refused to eat, to go out, went
to bed early and it was extremely hard to get her to smile.It pained Buffy
to see her like that, not only because she had to watch
the person she was in love with mourn over someone else, but mostly because
The Slayer hated see her friend like that, she'd do
anything she could to make her happy again, but unfortunately when it comes
to love time is the only medicine.And that's what
happened, time passed and day by day Willow started realizing that things
were the way they were, and that she could do was
move forward.And she did just that.

Bit by bit the old Willow start surfacing again.The smiles were
there again, the bitter thoughts were all gone, that happiness
that was typical of Willow was back, and all were really glad for that.In
the end they had gotten their old Willow back, this time
for good.Sure, there are a few times when she thinks about Oz and gets a
little sad, but the thoughts she had now aren't the same ones she had back
them.It probably doesn't make any sense, at least not to most people, but
the truth was that Willow was more sad over the fact that she didn't was as
sad as she was supposed to be than because Oz had left her. She missed Oz ,
but she missed him as you miss someone that protects you, that keeps you
safe, that was there with you all the time, not like you'd miss someone that
was as close to her as he was supposed to be.It's a little insane, but
living in a Hellmouth does that to you.

Things passed very quietly after that, supernatural attacks, vamps
to slay, nothing really out ordinary, at least not on the
saving the world part of Buffy's life.Now, her personal life was a whole
other story.She had this guy interested on her_not really
her type, she was more into redheads lately_ she had an Angel flashback, oh,
yeah, and Willow and her had grown a lot
closer.No, they didn't shared any smoochies or anything like that, not yet
anyway, but Buffy was really considering the idea of
talking to her friend about that.What they did do was spend a lot of time
together, studying, goofing, slaying, everywhere one
went the other went too.It may seem a little boring, but to Buffy it was a
bliss.It was like she finally had a chance to see this side
of Willow that she had never had the opportunity to see before.A side that
that not even Willow knew she had.They got to the
point that they didn't even have to talk to each other , they could tell
what the other was thinking or feeling just by looking at
their face.It was an overwhelming experience, and one Buffy was happy to
share with Willow.

It wasn't long before the others started noticing the changes in
their relationship, maybe they were aware of it before the
two of them.First they started giving hints_well, pretty direct ones in
Anya's case_ about how the two of them were spending so
much time together, then came the comments about how , as of late, they had
adopted a touchy behavior.Well, that was also
true.Since this bounding started they had gotten a little bolder.

Buffy started it.First with small gestures, like holding hands, and
stuff like that, then, when illow didn't pull away she
went a little further, and instead of holding hands she started putting her
arm around Willow's waist, pulling the other girl a little
closer.From that on things got a little more intimate, they had clearly
become the perfect picture of the couple in love.Everybody
could see it, but they would never address the matter.Well, until now.

"So, do you sense anything" Willow finally asked, interrupting
the course of their thoughts and breaking the silence.

"Not a soul in sight."

"Well, that doesn't really mean anything.Most of the creatures
that wander around Sunnydale at night are soul-less
vampires or creatures in general." Willow answered, a smile playing in the
corner of her lips

"You got a point, " Buffy said, grinning"But you know what i
mean.."

"Yeah, I know, i'm just giving you a hard time"She told the
other girl."So, what you're thinking about?You seem kind
of distant."

"I-I... I was just thinking... thinking
about...a-about..."Buffy trails of.I was thinking about what it would be
like to
kiss you right here, right now, i'm thinking about how much i love, how i
want to go to sleep and wake with you in my
arms every day, i'm thinking how i want to spend the rest of my life with
you, that's what i'm thinking.She wanted to say
these things to her friend, she really did, but she just couldn't bring
herself to it.She couldn't risk what they had, so she just did
what she could do, she lied."I was just thinking about hellmouthy stuff,
it's not really important" The Slayer says, not bringing
herself to look at her friends face.

"Oh," Willow knew that Buffy was not telling the truth,
everytime that Buffy avoidded her gaze it meant that she was
hiding something, and this time it was not different."Well, if you want to
talk about it or anything else that may be bothering you,
just know that i'm here, ready to listen" she continues, looking at her
friend.

"I know, It's nothing really , but thanks anyway" The
Slayer says softly, casting a quick glance towards her friend.


They continued their walk in silence for a few minutes,
neither sure of what to say , but both quite aware that this in
nothing resembled the comfortable silent moments that were so usual when
they were together.It was Willow that finally broke
the silence, asking a question that had being hunting her thoughts since her
best friend started her 'everything-is-ok-and-nothing-
is-wrong-with-our-friendship' routine.

" Did i do something wrong?"

"No, you did nothing wrong , no wrong things done by you.In
fact, if this was a do nothing wrong contest you would
win the first place." Buffy went on, having no control of the words that
were leaving her mouth.She didn't think she could tell the
truth, so she did the next best thing, she babbled.

"Buffy, you're babbling.I am the one that usually babbles,
remember?" The hacker said with a smirk " I just asked
because it seems like you're avoiding me.Everytime i get near you you get
all tense..., and lately it seems like you're hiding
something from me, something that may be affecting our friendship" She went
on, a hurt tone in her voice.

"What? This isn't avoiding, see. I'm here, you're here.We're
here... together. And i'm not hiding anything from you,
anything that you'd like to know was hidden by me.Nothing at all" Buffy
stammered.She was not lying , well, not technically.She
was pretty sure that Willow wouldn't like to know about these feelings she
was having."You ask, i answer, you answer , i ask,
no hiding.Hiding is bad.It can have lots of consequences, bad consequences.
Unless..You don't think we're suffering any
consequences, do you? 'Cause i don't think we're facing any,...consequences,
i mean.Do you? No, of course you don't ,
because, there is no hiding, therefore, no consequences, right? Even
though..." Buffy was about to go on her insane tirade_
Anything to get the subject off the real problem_ when she felt soft lips
pressed against her own.

Buffy didn't really know how that had happened, she was so busy
trying to avoid looking at her best friend that she
failed to notice that the hacker was advancing towards her, and when she did
notice it was already too late, they were already
kissing..The lips were soft, caring, warm, and as they moved against hers
Buffy knew for sure that they were Willow's lips.It was
only a matter of seconds before she found herself responding , tasting her
Willow's lips and slowly taking control of the
kiss.One of her hands found the curve of the hacker's neck, pulling the girl
even closer, while the other one gently traced the
curves of the redhead's body.Her lips duelled with Willow's as they sought
each other's mouths, as if they were trying to become
one being.Her tongue caressed Willow lips , and with the eagerness of an
adventurer that has just found some new , uncharted
territory she made her way inside the other girls mouth, exploring
caressing, loving.She just couldn't get enough.

Willow didn't really knew what had come over her, one minute
she was listening to Buffy talk, then the next one she
found herself suddenly overwhelmed with an uncontrollable urge to kiss her
best friend, to taste those lips that she had longed
for so long.And that's what she did.Forgetting about all her concerns and
all the consequences that this act could bring, she
kissed her Buffy.The second her lips touched Buffy's she felt something
inside of her click, and as she lightly sucked on The
Slayer's lips the only thing she could think of was how right that felt.Her
arms found their way around the other girl's waist,
pulling her close.She felt Buffy start to respond and relaxed, letting her
take the lead.A soft moan escaped her lips as The
Slayer's tongue penetrated her mouth.The kiss went on for long moments,
neither of them wanting to let go, bout both knowing
that they had to catch some air.So Willow softly untangled their tongues,
slowly breaking the kiss, but still keeping a tight hold
on Buffy's waist, their foreheads touching.

Buffy couldn't believe what had just happened, Willow, her best
friend Willow, the girl she had been pinning over for
months Willow had just kissed her, and not just a friendly kiss, but a
passionate, 'if i could i'd have you right here' kind of
kiss.For a few seconds after they broke apart she thought that it had been
all a dream, that something like that would never
happen in real life, but them she felt the hacker's arms tighten around her
waist, and in that moment she realized not only that it
was real, but that it would also happen lots of times.

"You-you kissed me" Buffy whispered, still trying to catch her
breath.

For a few seconds Willow just stood there, without saying a
thing, until she finally raised her head and said,
softly."Yeah, yeah i did.And I've being wanting to do that for a long time."
The moment she felt Buffy's lips moving against hers
she knew that she had not been alone, that the love she felt for her best
friend wasn't one-sided like she had thought until a few
minutes ago.She didn't know why, but for some reason that kiss proved that
all these things she had being feeling, that all these
reactions that her best friend was stirring within her were also being
stirred inside her best friend, being stirred by her.That
knowledge gave her confidence to tell Buffy the truth, the entire truth.

The look of shock that had fallen upon The Slayer's face when
Willow told her that she had being wanting her for a long
time was quickly replaced by one of comprehension when she looked in her
friends eyes.In Willow's eye Buffy saw love, and
not just the friendly love they had been hidden behind all this time, but
real, true love.The kind of love you find only once in a
lifetime and that goes on forever, even when memories are all that we have
left.Willow loved her, Buffy Summers, and she loved
Willow.

They kissed for a long time before they decided to go back to their
dorm, not only as best friends, but as a mix of
everything.They had the best of all worlds , and knew it.To some people a
kiss is just a kiss, a simple contact of lips, but to
these two it was something far more important.It was the beginning of their
life, a life they would live together, forever, even if
forever ends tomorrow.When they got to the dorm they went on with their
plans for the night.The food was ordered, the movie
on the screen,... but if you ever ask any of them what they ate or which
movies they saw that night they probably won't be able
to asnwer.They had better things to do and a lot of time to catch up.







Riley:...And so far, well, the only thing that I know she likes is you.(to
Willow, about Buffy)
Buffy:I need my Willow.
Buffy: I kind of love you.(to Willow)
Buffy:I love you, Will.
See, Buffy loves Willow.
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