Re: Theme fic:"A Little Birdie..",End

["Pat Kelly"]

I don't have to say I liked it do I? I feel like I'm getting repetitive. :-)
Please, I can't wait for "More Than Words"

Later

Pay

"When I held that gun, I felt an incredible surge of power. Like God must
feel when he's holding a gun.." (Homer J. Simpson)

"You've been fighting evil here for three years, and I've helped some, and
now we're supposed to decide what we want to do with our lives. And I just
realized that that's what I want to do. Fight evil, help people. I mean, I
think it's worth doing. And I don't think you do it because you have to.
It's a good fight, Buffy, and I want in."

"I kind of love you."
(Willow Rosenberg, Buffy Summers, BTVS)

"Don't.."
"What? Don't love you? I didn't know I got a choice in that."
(Angel, Buffy Summers, BTVS)
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Subject: [buffyloveswillow] Theme fic:"A Little Birdie..",End


> From: "jbstories _" <jbstories@xxxxxxxxxxx>
>
> "A Little Birdie Told Me So"
> --------------------------------
>
> Disclaimer: All the characters, Buffy, Willow, Giles, Xander, etc. belong
to
> Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy Inc., and Warner Bros. I'm just borrowing
their
> brilliant creations. I intend no copyright infringement from my use of
their
> characters, and will receive no monetary or any other compensation for
> their use, in any form, of the story that succeeds.
>
> ==================================================================
>
> Part Five
> -------------
>
> "Where is everybody?" Anya asked finally emerging from the back room.
>
> "Buffy's out walking Spike, and Xander and Giles went to the butchers
shop,"
> Willow responded looking up from her book. Giles always had the best
spell
> books just lying around his house.
>
> "Oh," Anya said taking a seat on the couch. "Are you doing anything fun?"
>
> "Well, I was looking through Volume III of the Dreger's almanac, and I
found
> this super cool incantation for." Willow started to say but Anya
> interrupted her.
>
> "Please, stop," Anya said holding up her hand. "I'm already regretting my
> inquiry immensely."
>
> "Boy, you must be a joy to be around in the morning," Willow said as Anya
> yawned.
>
> "Mornings tend to lose their thrill after 2000 years or so," Anya
responded.
> "Let's see how you're doing after your first millennia," she continued.
>
> They sat in silence for a while after that, but Willow found it impossible
> to concentrate on the text with Anya sitting behind her doing nothing.
>
> "You know," Willow said standing up and moving over to the couch. "It
> occurs to me that we've never really had the opportunity to just sit down
> and talk."
>
> "Are we going to bond now?" Anya asked looking over at her.
>
> "We're going try," Willow said building up her resolve. "We are certainly
> going to try."
>
> ===============================================================
>
> "I don't see why I have to be here," Spike grumbled kicking a pebble along
> the ground.
>
> "You said you wanted some fresh air, so I'm giving you some fresh air,"
> Buffy responded. "Now be good or I'll put on your leash."
>
> "I don't bloody believe this!" Spike exclaimed kicking a wall. "Oh! God!
> Bloody hell that hurts!" he said now bouncing on his good foot holding the
> one he'd hurt. "I'm William the Bloody, the scourge of Europe.and some of
> Asia. Whole country sides bowed down to my will."
>
> "One more word out of you Mister and I swear." Buffy said holding up the
> leash and clicking the clasp.
>
> "Why don't you just stake me?" Spike muttered under his breath.
>
> "Don't temp me," Buffy retorted. "I'm disliking you more than usual right
> now.which is saying a lot."
>
> "Oh, this is about Birch again isn't it?" he asked limping slightly.
>
> "That's it," Buffy said reaching out for him. "An important part of
> functioning in society is learning to respect authority. Without that
> fundamental respect, chaos ensues.as you well know. You, Spike, have
spent
> too much time on the outskirts of society and it is my duty not only as
the
> Slayer, but as a human being, to re-integrate you," Buffy continued
> attaching the leach to his collar.
>
> "Were you this mean when you WERE getting some?" Spike asked. Buffy
simply
> yanked in response. "I'll take that as a yes," Spike muttered under his
> breath.
>
> ===============================================================
>
> "So," Willow started. "How are things going with you and Xander?" She
> could only hope that her inquiry wouldn't be met with graph descriptions
of
> the sex they were having.
>
> "He's distracted," Anya responded. "I had to make my own orgasm," she
added
> sourly.
>
> Willow visibly paled.
>
> "TMI," Willow said clasping her hands over her ears. "T-M-I," she said
> again pronouncing each letter distinctly.
>
> "I'm not familiar with that acronym," Anya said completely unfazed.
> "Explain."
>
> "Too Much Information," Willow responded finally unclasping her hands from
> the side of her head.
>
> "You shouldn't have asked then," Anya responded. "I don't understand why
> humans insist on making queries that they don't wish to know the answers
to.
> It's highly illogical."
>
> "Thank you for sharing that diatribe Mr. Spock," Willow responded. Her
face
> was starting to regain colour.
>
> "Mr. Spock? Is that some sort of pop-culture reference?" Anya asked.
> "Because I don't do those."
>
> "Okay," Willow said shifting her position. "This is not going at all
> according to plan."
>
> Anya just stared at her.
>
> "Maybe we should just forget about this 'bonding' thing and go back to
> sitting in silence," Willow suggested. She knew that silence was looking
> really good to her at the moment.
>
> "Wouldn't a change of topic be more appropriate?" Anya asked. She wasn't
> really a fan of the silence. Besides she did have something in mind to
talk
> about.
>
> "Yeah," Willow responded eyeing her a bit. "Sure, change of topic, a
topic
> different from the original.a whole new area of discussion, a completely
> separate."
>
> "I get it," Anya said interrupting. "It's new."
>
> ===============================================================
>
> "Before I start I'd like to make it clear that I'm not at all interested
in
> seeing you attain any sort of happiness," Spike said as Buffy dragged him
> along.
>
> "Ditto," she said simply.
>
> "But."
>
> "There's always a but," Buffy muttered.
>
> "Why don't you just tell her how you feel and get it the hell over with so
> that I can get some goddamn rest," he continued testily.
>
> "There's nothing to tell," Buffy said yanking him a bit. For someone who
> was technically dead he sure did talk a lot.
>
> "Yeah, and I'm Martha Stewart," Spike responded.
>
> "Well, that menorah you made for Willow really was very pretty," Buffy
said
> smiling.
>
> "I was bored and Giles had just gotten back from the pottery barn," Spike
> said defensively.
>
> "Keep telling yourself that," Buffy said turning down the road that would
> bring them back to Giles'.
>
> "Come on," Spike said. "Talking about it will make you feel better."
>
> Buffy just looked back and glared at him.
>
> "I won't tell anyone, I swear it," Spike continued when Buffy didn't
> respond.
>
> "Since you seem to be so smart why do you need me to tell you anything?"
> Buffy asked. She wasn't even really upset at Spike, he was just
being.well
> Spike. She was upset that she was seriously considering talking to him.
> Besides Claire and her posse, Spike was the only person Buffy knew was hip
> to her feelings about Willow, and she really needed to talk about it.
>
> "I was just trying to be civil," Spike responded in a slightly wounded
tone.
> "Since I can't kill you and all," he added under his breath.
>
> "I can't tell her," Buffy mumbled.
>
> "Why the hell not?" Spike asked. Humans were so annoying, that's why he
ate
> so many of them.
>
> "I don't want to ruin our friendship," Buffy answered. "Telling someone
> that you're in love with them and want their body usually tends to have
SOME
> sort of effect on a relationship."
>
> "Yeah," Spike agreed. "You tell her and then you both have sex, and I
don't
> have to watch you pining after her anymore. Everybody wins, but more
> importantly I'M happy."
>
> "If I tell her, there won't be any sex or anything else to be had since
she
> doesn't feel the same way I do, "Buffy said scuffing her shoes along the
> ground. "She's probably still not even over Oz."
>
> "Who?" Spike asked staring at Buffy's neck.
>
> She looked back at him.
>
> "The werewolf," Buffy responded.
>
> "Oh him," Spike responded. "She's not in love with him. I'm sure he was
> very snuggly but they were just passing time."
>
> "Excuse me?" Buffy asked stopping and trying around to face the vampire.
>
> "I'm surrounded by stupidity, utter, ubiquitous stupidity," Spike said
> exasperated flinging his hands into the air. "I try, and I try, but I'm a
> demon not a bloody miracle worker."
>
> "Are you finished wallowing in self pity?" Buffy asked. Spike nodded
> sullenly. "Okay, then do you mind telling me what the hell you were
getting
> at with that 'passing time' comment?"
>
> "Willow's in love with you too!" Spike exclaimed. "Whenever you're in the
> same room she's gives off as many pheromones as bloody dog in heat."
>
> "You went to the 'Cordelia Chase School of Tact', didn't you?" Buffy asked
> looking him.
>
> "Honesty's the best policy," Spike respond shrugging.
>
> ===============================================================
>
> Willow somehow got the impression that her conversation with Anya was
going
> to be a trying event, so before they started in with the new conversation
> she went into the kitchen to get some refreshments.
>
> "So," Anya said once Willow re-joined her in the room. "When are you and
> Buffy going to become orgasm friends?"
>
> Willow sat in a stunned silence and started at her. The hacker thought
that
> she was alive, she could still see and think, but she felt oddly detached
> from her body, like she wasn't really in it, let alone in the room.
>
> "Oh god, I think I killed her," Anya said when Willow didn't respond. The
> ex-vengeance demon moved over and the couch and started poking her. "Are
> you dead?" she asked. "Because I don't think that the others are going to
> like that."
>
> "You.I .you.said.orgasm," was all Willow managed to get out before her
oral
> skills once again deserted her.
>
> "Well?" Anya asked.
>
> "I.me.Buffy.me.and Buffy.not.one with.orgasm," Willow said. She couldn't
> seem to get past that word.
>
> "I'm beginning to think that the silence probably would have been the
better
> of the two ideas," Anya commented.
>
> "Buffy.Buffy doesn't feel the same way I do," Willow said a few moments
> later in a soft voice.
>
> "Really?" Anya asked. "What Buffy are you talking about, because the
Buffy
> I know can barely keep her eyes, and hands off of you," she continued.
>
> "No," Willow said. She was sure that there was more to that sentence but
> "no" was all that came out.
>
> "Ah, yeah," Anya responded.
>
> "No," Willow said again. Her brain refused to engage.
>
> "Yeah," Anya retorted.
>
> "No."
>
> "Yeah."
>
> ===============================================================
>
> Part Five
> -------------
>
> Buffy and Spike arrived back at Giles' house shortly before Xander and
Giles
> got back, and on the tail end of Anya and Willow's conversation which they
> were assured was "nothing". By the time they had all gathered in the
house
> again it was getting late and Buffy and Willow decided that it would
> probably be best to head on back home. Xander and Anya also had to catch
up
> on the some quality time before Giles brought Spike over to Xander's, so
> they left at the same time as the Slayer and hacker.
>
> Buffy and Willow were now back in their dorm rooms lying on their
respective
> beds staring up at the ceiling thinking about the completely bizarre
> conversations they had had with their respective partners.
>
> "Will?" Buffy asked finally.
>
> "Yeah," Willow answered.
>
> "I don't think that I'm going to take Spike for anymore walks," Buffy said
> decisively.
>
> "I don't want to bond with Anya," Willow said in response.
>
> "It's been a peculiar couple of days," Buffy continued still staring at
the
> ceiling.
>
> "Very peculiar," Willow repeated.
>
> "Yep," Buffy said.
>
> "What were you and Anya talking about anyway?" Buffy asked tilting her
head
> to the side.
>
> "The Book of Levitain, I thought that it was a well-written worthwhile
piece
> of literature, and Anya thought that it was unadulterated crap," Willow
> responded thinking quickly.
>
> "Don't you hate it when that happens?" Buffy asked.
>
> "What about you and Spike?" Willow asked. "You two seem to be at each
> others throats even more than usual."
>
> "He's just really, really, irritating," Buffy responded. "Really."
>
> "Really?" Willow asked turning her head so that she was looking at Buffy.
>
> "Cute," Buffy responded in a dry tone even though she was smiling.
>
> 'As always," Willow responded grinning before returning her gaze to the
> ceiling.
>
> "You know coming from anyone else that would have sounded impudent," Buffy
> said still watching Willow. "But coming from you.it's a statement of
> absolute truth," she continued in a soft almost reverent tone.
>
> When Buffy had finished speaking Willow turned her head back around so
that
> she was looking directly into Buffy's eyes. They held each others gaze
for
> what felt like an eternity, drowning in the depths of each others eyes,
> longing to be closer. They continued this until Buffy finally broke the
> contact by returning her gaze to the ceiling with a soft, inaudible sigh.
> She couldn't trust herself to continue looking at Willow, and remain only
> looking. She wasn't stoic, but she wasn't exactly an open book either.
> Yet, despite her median disposition Willow had always been able to tell
how
> she was feeling, just from looking at her. Even when Buffy was beyond
> confident that her face showed no emotion at all, somehow Willow still
knew.
> That's why she had to look away, because Willow couldn't know this, not
> yet, maybe even not ever.
>
> "Did you notice something going on with Xander today?" Willow asked a few
> moments after Buffy had looked away from her. As she asked she shifting
her
> position a little trying to get comfortable. The look that they had
shared,
> it had touched her in some deep place and she was feeling nervous. It had
> left her with this craving to hear Buffy's voice, to be close to her.
>
> "He seemed kind of agitated.but he's always like that so." Buffy just left
> the sentence hanging. She had really said all that she planned on saying
so
> there was no reason to continue. "Why?" she asked as an afterthought.
>
> "Anya said that he was distracted about something," Willow responded.
>
> "That what you two were talking about? Xander?" Buffy asked. She knew
that
> Willow was lying when she had answered earlier. The book of Levitain had
> been burned down along with the school in June.
>
> "At first," Willow said. "But then."
>
> "Then what?" Buffy asked encouragingly.
>
> "She.you really don't need to hear this," Willow said. "I didn't need to
> hear this. If there was a way that I could possibly undo hearing it, I
> would do it, but I can't so I suffer."
>
> "Come on, tell me," Buffy said. "It'll make you feel better."
>
> "She.well she.she started talking about how she had to make her own
> orgasm's," Willow said in a rush.
>
> "Oh," was all Buffy said in response. She wasn't expecting that, she
> thought that it was going to be some demon thing, a curse or something
like
> that.
>
> "Yeah," Willow said nodding knowingly. This kind of thing had a way of
> leaving one speechless.
>
> "On that note." Buffy started to say slowly.
>
> "We should probably just go to sleep," Willow finished for her.
>
> "Yeah," Buffy responded nodding even though she wasn't really very tired.
>
> "Okay then," Willow said. She sounded like she was trying to talk herself
> into it.
>
> "Sleep it is," Buffy said in response.
>
> "Goodnight Buff," Willow said turning out her light.
>
> "Night Red," Buffy said turning out hers.
>
>
> As they lay there in a comfortable silence, both pretending to be asleep,
> their thoughts ran along identical paths. It had all started with a
rumor,
> but it had evolved far beyond that in the few days since it all started.
> The issue had changed from who was speculating what, to the very real
> emotions that had been growing inside of them both for a very long time.
A
> rumor had changed it all. The creature that-until those fateful days-had
> been content to stay on the fringes of their consciousness, had now
stirred
> and crept forth into their conscious minds, settling, and allowing them no
> rest. It all started with a rumor, but it had been far eclipsed by
itself.
> It was ironic although they didn't know it at the time. Two girl, two
> friends, two souls both with the same secret, same fears, and same love.
> Both oblivious to the fact that the plight of the other was the same as
> their own. As they drifted off to sleep they were both aware that
something
> needed to be done, but the question that nagged at them, consumed them,
was
> what? What could be done? What should be done? And of all of the
actions
> or inaction's they could choose, which ones, which one, could they live
> with? In the end, it all came down to one thing. Love. And the real
> question that they were asking themselves was, was love worth it? Was it
> worth it worth risking the single most important thing in their
lives-their
> friendship-for?
>
> The answer.well, the answer whatever it be, would change their lives
> forever.
>
> ===============================================================
>
> The End
> (of "A Little Birdie Told Me So" anyway :-)
> To Be Continued in a sequel "More Than Words" (were the good
> stuff--smoochies--gets going on)
>
> Later,
> Janine
>
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