From: "A.M. Glass" <glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx>
Hello there,
I know some of you are wondering what's going on.
Well, after reading the story to my friend, and
being
asked for more details after a certain scene. I
decided to write a continutation, it takes place
after
Willow tells Tara to "Kiss me again."
I don't usually write this sort of thing, as I get
embarrassed quite easily.
So, I'm very interested to know how it worked,
although I highly doubt I'll write this kind of
scene
again.
Thanks
Angela
Title: "My Secret Heart Ache: Special Edition."
Author: Angela
E-Mail: glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx
Copyright: February 19, 2000
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon, Fox, Mutant Enemy all have
something to do with "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" and
all the characters contained herein. The story is
sole
property of the author, me. No copyright
infringement
is intended or inferred.
Author's Notes: This is the fifth story in the
"Heart
Ache" Series. This story has not been beta'd, only
spell checked using Microsoft Word '97.
Distribution: If you'd like it, it's yours.
Feedback: It really helps to see if you like the
story
or not.
***
Previously:
"Are you sure?" Tara asked as they neared her dorm
room.
"Yeah, I'm sure. I brought it up, and I wouldn't
bring it up unless I was sure," Willow replied.
"Okay."
Tara opened the door and allowed Willow to enter
first, looking down the hall; she had had the oddest
feeling that someone had been watching them earlier,
prior to shutting her door behind her.
***
They entered the room without saying anything, only
the door closing behind Tara broke the silence. Tara
slowly turned to see Willow looking around her room,
as if this were the first time the other girl had
ever
seen it before.
This was *not* the big step she had hoped for, but
it
was the next best thing.
They were going to sleep together.
'Sleep,' she told herself.
They had spoken about it once or twice, in general.
Never really placing their situation into the
equation, just as a 'what if' sort of thing.
What if they decided to move forward with their
relationship?
What they were contemplating would be the most
natural
next step. Neither of them wanted to rush what was
going on between them. Tara understood that Willow
had
come from a devastating break-up with her boyfriend.
She didn't know exactly what happened, but from what
Willow had told her, she hadn't expected it.
Tara also knew that Willow had been intimate with
her
boyfriend, and that they had shared a unique bond.
Although she didn't like listening to some of the
more
private details of Willow's previous relationship,
she
never considered telling the other girl that she
didn't want to hear what she had shared with someone
else.
"Um… do you want something to drink?" Tara asked
Willow.
"No, thanks. But don't let me stop you," she
replied.
Tara thought about getting a soda from her tiny
fridge, but decided against it. She walked up to
Willow, placing her right hand on her shoulder,
dropping it quickly when she felt Willow flinch.
"Maybe this isn't a good idea," Tara said, siting
on
her bed, looking at the floor.
Willow turned around slowly, taking a deep breath.
Her
heart went out to her friend. Walking towards her,
she
kneeled down.
"Tara?"
"Yeah," she replied not looking up, not wanting to
get lost in those eyes.
"Thank you."
Tara's head jerked up and looked at Willow.
"For what?" she whispered.
"For letting me change my mind…"
"Oh."
"Hey, I didn't finish," Willow replied, her hand
gently caressing Tara's face. "I was going to say,
thank you for letting change my mind… if I wanted
to."
"Oh…" she said, before the meaning of the other
woman
words sunk in. "Oh!"
Willow smiled as she watched the transformation take
place, gone was the crestfallen look of despair and
in
its place was a smile that conveyed so much, it took
her breath away.
"Um… so what do we do next?" Tara asked, never
having
been in this position before.
"Good question," Willow replied, as she got
comfortable on the floor.
They both looked at each other and laughed. It felt
good.
"How about we try a spell?" Tara asked.
"Normally I'd be all over it, but I don't think
so."
Tara nodded her head. Willow patted the empty space
next to her.
"Keep me company?"
"Sure," Tara answered with a smile on her face.
"So…"
"Yeah, so." Tara replied, sitting next to Willow
their legs touching.
"Wow, who knew that sleeping would be so hard?"
Willow said out loud.
"Yeah. Umm… Willow?"
"Yes Tara?"
"Could I kiss you?"
A smile graced Willow's features, making Tara's
heart
clench.
"Yes."
Tara's face lit up. She unconsciously moistened her
lips, searching Willow's eyes for any sign that she
didn't want this as much as she did. Closing her
eyes