Re: OT: I think I am going insane

[Cassandra <goodms01@xxxxxxx>]

"J. Eckardt" wrote:
> 
> From: "J. Eckardt" <jeckardt@xxxxxxx>
> 
> Okay,
> 
> I have a problem. I have never liked David Boreanaz. I didn't like the
> character he played and I did not think he was handsome. The other night I
> had this weird dream with him in it and now I can't get him out of my head.
> I am going to give you a summary of the dream and what I am feeling now.
> 
> Dream:
> 
> David and I are walking together up and down the isles of the grocery
> store shopping for food to put in the apartment fridge. He and I had been
> freinds and roommates for three years and so we were comfortable around each
> other. We talked about how the Valentine's candy was on sale and what we
> wanted to do when we got back to the apartment. We got in the line and then
> picked up our bags and headed out the door. We were walking towards the
> parking lot when this bimbo with blonde hair, big boobs, and looks of
> leather comes up and starts hitting on David. I feel sorry for the woman
> because she has to go through such extremes to get a guy to notice. Then
> David tells the bimbo that he can't because he is taken and he leans over
> and kisses me. Now I am shocked but I go along and kiss back. As we are
> kissing there are sleaze reporters taking our picture and I feel a safe,
> comfortable warmth fill my body.
> The next day (In the dream) David and I go back to the store and when we
> get in line every tabloid on the shelf has us kissing on it. The head line
> closest to me reads "Angel's New Angel" (Corny I know). David just grabs one
> of each tabloid and half smiles at me.
> "Now that the world thinks we are together..Would you go out with me?"
> He asks as the ringer adds our things up. I smile and get this warm feeling
> again.
> "Yes." I answer him.
> 
> I then woke up. I will say again that I have never thought of him like
> that for two reasons.
> 
> 1) I thought I was a lesbian (I'll explain that in a moment)
> 2) I never thought him handsome before.
> 
> Ever since that dream I have been smiling like a goofy kid of fifteen
> ever time I think about him. I also get that warm feeling from my dream, and
> I have had serious doubts about my lesbianism. I needed to talk to someone
> because if I talk to my parents they'll just go 'Mmmmhmm I knew you weren't
> gay you were just trying to get attention.' I hate it when they do that.
> Which they do whenever I introduce one of my guy friends.

I know it's a bit late to reply to this, but I was away from
my email all weekend, sooo...

I don't think you should worry about your sexual orientation
because of a dream. Dreams are, for the most part, just
that -- I've been attracted to/ in relationships with/ doing
naughty things with people I'm not at all attracted to, or
even somewhat repelled by, in the real world in dreams, and
that didn't make me attracted to them. Moreover, I think
something major would have to happen for anyone to question
their orientation, at least after that first questioning
period -- I identify as bi, but I have a phenomenally large
range of crushes on women right now, and really none on
guys... but I don't think I'm a lesbian, for a lot of
reasons.

Casseigh
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