Fic: Tomorrow Night and Always 2/2 Vampire Stories B/W/X NC17

[Crys Loch <pagansoul@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

Buffy fell back on the bed.  "Of course it'll have to wait for tonight.  
We're stuck at the moment in this room.  Do you think the others will 
start to wonder soon?"

Willow traced Buffy's body with her eyes as she considered the 
question.  "Well, no-one's bothered you for days now.  And I told 
Kennedy I was going to see you.  Try to reconnect.  I guess I did that.  
She's so busy playing lead slayer now, with Faith staying at the 
hospital with Robin, that I don't think she'll even notice."



"We are trapped in a motel with a bunch of slayers."  Buffy pointed out.



"And yet I'm not as worried as I probably should be."  Willow shrugged.  
"Though seeing that spell in a new light, we didn't exactly make the 
world any easier for ourselves."



"Well you don't want to march to the other drummers and try to destroy 
it, do you?"  Buffy raised up a little and looked at Willow.



"No.  I just want the chance to live in it."  Willow confirmed.



"Or not as the case may be.  Besides, I've heard it advertised as full 
of happy meals with legs."  When Buffy saw Willow's raised eyebrows, she 
clarified.  "Spike's words."



"So maybe we should just take off.  Head north or something and just 
keep going till we find a place to stop."  Willow started to plan out loud.



"Turn Xander, load him in the car tonight, and disappear?"  Buffy smiled 
at the plan.  "Could be good.  The occasional slayer doesn't worry me.  
But I don't think we need everyone taking off after us."



"So we write 'em notes."  Willow reached out again and started stroking 
Buffy's leg.  Shaking her head, she refocused on the plan.  "A 'sorry, 
we needed time to ourselves to figure it all out' kind of thing.  And I 
could write Kennedy a dear Jane letter.  Oh, wait, but what about Giles?"



"He can never know."  Buffy stressed.  "He'll get involved in new 
slayers and new watchers.  He'll be able to let us go."



"So you don't think we should turn him too?"  Willow realized just how 
much a part of the group she felt he was.



"No."  Buffy sat up.  "No.  He'd kill us if we made him spend eternity 
with us.  He kept trying to break away.  And he was right, it is time we 
tried this on our own."



"Okay, Buffy.  But he'll need his own letter.  Something a little more 
detailed than 'we had to go'.  I think this will work.  If we're 
careful, we could just disappear."  Willow felt relief and excitement at 
the idea.  "Oh, wait, what about Dawn?"



"Dawn."  Buffy looked around the room, absently searching for an idea.  
"I don't know yet.  But we'll have to think of something to say, or 
write.  She's grown up so much, so quickly.  Hell, she kicked me out of 
'our' house, so she's more than I little ready to break away I think.  
We just have to make it okay for her to go on.  She'll be mad.  But I 
can't fix this one.  Life isn't fair."



"We'll think of something, Buffy."  Willow assured her.



Buffy lay back down on the bed.  "Well, we have all day to write the 
letters.  It seems all my life I've just been waiting for the sun to go 
down."



Willow lay on the bed beside Buffy.  "Are you mad?  That you're still, 
well, alive?"



"Again, not exactly."  Buffy turned towards Willow and smiled.  "I'm not 
mad.  It's just another death.  Third time's the charm.  And by tomorrow 
night, it begins again, with just the three of us."



"Tomorrow night, and always."  Willow moved her hand up Buffy's body and 
lightly traced random patterns over her chest and stomach.



Buffy looked down at the hand then back to Willow, a teasing smile on 
her face.  "Willow, what are you doing?"



Willow responded by leaning down and kissing Buffy, her tongue quickly 
seeking entry into her friend's mouth.



Buffy let the kiss happen and deepen, meeting Willow's tongue with her 
own, she returned the kiss.  When it ended, she looked up questioningly 
into Willow's eyes.



Willow moved her hand to her friend's breast and started to caress it.  
"I feel less empty when I'm touching you.  Plus, there's no inhibitions 
stopping me from doing what I've wanted to do for years."



"But Willow, I don't..."  Buffy closed her eyes and arched slightly.



Willow trailed her fingers down Buffy's body, over her thigh, and back 
up to firmly stroke Buffy's center through the thin material of her 
shorts.  "Don't you feel less empty when I'm touching you?"



"Yes."  Buffy moved against Willow's fingers, her hand reaching for 
Willow to pull her closer.  "But I don't know..."



"Yes you do."  Willow interrupted and let Buffy pull her down, beginning 
another kiss.



Willow ended the kiss and smiling at her newfound boldness, removed 
Buffy's clothes.  As she was pulling her own clothes off, she wondered 
briefly at the marked contrast between the emptiness of her body and the 
solace she felt when she touched Buffy.  Seeing Buffy's prone body and 
the timid, pleading look in her eyes, she reminded herself to wonder 
about it another time.  Willow bent forward again, teasing one of 
Buffy's breasts with her tongue; she brought a hand again to Buffy's 
center, smiling as her fingers easily slid through slick folds to enter her.



Buffy bent her legs and raised her hips to meet Willow's controlled 
touch and rhythm.  A hand tangled itself into Willow's hair as the other 
grasped the bedspread beside her.  It seemed so sudden, the overwhelming 
sensations, and Buffy simply moved her body to Willow's touch, holding 
onto her friend for the ride.  Buffy felt such comfort and consolation 
in the feel of Willow's fingers inside of her; filling and stroking 
her.  When she felt Willow move to trace the recent bite with her tongue 
and gently penetrate her with fangs, Buffy's sensations exploded and 
filled every part of her.  Coming down and drawing unneeded breaths out 
of habit, Buffy looked into Willow's human eyes and lifted her head to 
begin another welcome kiss.



Willow was pleasantly surprised when Buffy's rolled them over.  She 
encouraged Buffy's explorations.  A hand tangled in Buffy's hair and 
guided her friend's kisses to her breasts.  Clasping Buffy's wrist, she 
brought her friend's hand between her legs and only let go when she felt 
Buffy's fingers begin to stroke and explore on their own.  Urgent with 
the need to feel Buffy inside her, she met the hesitant first attempt at 
an entry with a push and thrust of her hips, a whispered plea of 'more' 
on her lips.  She relaxed into the touch when Buffy became more 
confident, letting the rhythm and movement carry her mind away.  When 
she felt Buffy's bite not at her neck, but into the side of her breast, 
Willow began begging for 'harder' and 'deeper', and finally exploded 
with a silent scream.  Wrapping a leg around her friend's and her arms 
around Buffy's back, she held her desperately, fearing the empty feeling 
that would return.



Sleep carried them through most of the afternoon and when they awoke, 
they could feel the sun begin its decent.  Reluctantly separating, they 
got dressed and began the chore of writing the letters that would excuse 
their escape.



"Here, Buffy, read this.  Does this sound alright?"  Willow handed over 
the dear Jane letter.  "This is surprisingly hard.  There's this whole 
part of me that just wants to write a big 'fuck you' in blood on the wall."



Buffy laughed.  "Oh, yeah, that'd get 'em not to wondering and chasing 
after us at all."  Buffy quickly scanned the letter.  "Sounds like the 
old you.  This'll work.  Now how about mine to Giles?" 



Willow read and reread the letter, editing for the imagined voice of who 
they should be now and making sure all the critical points were 
covered.  "It'll have to do, considering that none of this would 
actually be happening.  At least not this soon.  I think eventually this 
would all happen in a way, anyway.  We are wayward children now."  
Willow smiled at Buffy.  There was only the letter to Dawn left.



"We haven't been children for a long while."  Buffy reminded Willow.  
"Did we really get Xander's tone right for his letter?  Cause I don't 
want to go back into his head again."



"Yes, Buffy.  I think it's fine.  Should we write one from him just for 
Andrew?"  Willow arched her eyebrows and grinned evilly. 



Buffy laughed.  "Don't be mean."  After considering it a moment, she 
changed her mind, smiling at Willow in return.  "Okay, but just a little 
one.  And you write it this time."



"We can't put off Dawn's any longer, though."  Willow sobered some.  
"What are we going to say?"



"Well," Buffy started, "I guess we should say she's a beautiful, 
powerful adult now.  Amazing and intelligent and..."



"You still love her, don't you?"  Willow interrupted.



"Yeah."  Buffy conceded.  "I still have all my old thoughts in my head.  
I just want her to know that she's capable of going on.  I stopped 
living just for her a long while ago, and she finally this year stopped 
needing me to and started deciding her life for herself.  Is there a 
nice way of saying that?  We need to tell her she can stay with the 
slayers and new watcher set-up if she wants or she can go off to college 
maybe.  That's it.  Let her know that it's time to go on herself.  We 
already explained how we needed to let it go and move on, wished them 
luck but we couldn't be a part of it all again.  Dawn needs to do the 
same thing.  Let's tell Giles to take whatever he feels the watchers owe 
me and put Dawn through college.  Let's tell Dawn it's okay to let go 
and to live.  That's all that we've done."



"That sounds good, Buffy."  Willow handed Buffy the paper and pen.  
"Just try to write that down and I'll read it and we'll try to make it 
as soft as we can.  It's not like any of this won't hurt them, but maybe 
we can make it hurt less, and then disappear well enough that we won't 
hurt them again."



"You still love them too, don't you?"  Buffy smiled in understanding.



"With everything I was and so much of that is still around."  Willow 
acknowledged.  "I just hope tomorrow night, when Xander wakes, he feels 
the same way."



"He will."  Buffy assured.  "The hellmouth made him more than human in a 
way as well.  Just in a different way."



"Well then, let's finish this so we can get started."  Willow put her 
own pen to paper and started a short but sweet note just for Andrew.



When the sun finally set, all the letters were long done and they were 
pacing impatiently around the room.  Hunger created a nervous 
anticipation in Buffy.  "There, that's it.  We can go now.  God, let's 
sneak out of here, and... and then return for Xander."



"Let's sneak out of here to kill?  To feed?"  Willow clarified bluntly. 



Buffy hung her head briefly then raised it to look into Willow's eyes.  
"Yes."



Willow smiled reassuringly.  "It's okay, Buffy.  It's a part of who we 
are now.  And that part needs it just as much as the other part needed 
to write these letters.  Come on."



They exited the motel without being seen and started walking casually 
down the streets.  Passing a bar, they caught the notice of two men 
talking by the door.  The men were loud and almost lewd with their 
come-ons and Buffy smiled as they made her first kill easier for her 
mind.  The men mistook the smile and readily followed as she guided and 
teased them into the alley beside the bar.  Willow rolled her eyes at 
Buffy's selection, but followed behind.



Buffy didn't waste time teasing them further and pinning one against the 
wall, quickly let her demon to the fore and sank her fangs into his 
neck.  Pulling and sucking quickly at the wound, she was amazed at her 
desire for the warmth and passion of his blood, his life.  Easily 
withstanding his struggles, it seemed so soon he was nothing but a limp 
form in her arms and she let him drop.  Turning, she saw Willow push 
away the lifeless body of his friend.  Buffy noticed a knife attached to 
the man's belt and reached down to take it from its sheath.  She cut 
each of their necks deeply across the evidence of the bites, and wiping 
the handle on his shirt, let the knife drop between the men.  "So Giles 
won't know."  She explained to Willow.



"Clever."  Willow complimented Buffy.  "So, how do you feel now?"



"Warm, alive, surprisingly comfortable in my skin."  Buffy admitted.



Willow smiled.  "So we ready to do this?"



"Yeah."  Buffy stretched a little and shook away the last of the demon 
from her face.  "Let's visit Xander."



They hurried a little back to the motel, slowing only as they approached 
it.  Willow took Buffy's hand in her own and gave it a gentle squeeze 
before they snuck back into the motel and knocked on Xander's door.



Xander's answering smile was returned and they slipped inside.  They 
didn't wish any pain or cause for alarm, so Buffy simply took her cue 
from Willow's example the night before and gave Xander a welcoming hug.  
Willow gently closed the door and leaned against it, intently watching 
as Xander's eye closed in comfort and his arms wrapped around Buffy in 
return.  He gasped and opened his eye, staring in question at Willow, as 
Buffy's fangs penetrated his neck.  He mutely struggled against her 
embrace before weakly grasping her and holding on.



Xander's immediate reaction was blind panic.  He blankly stared at 
Willow simply watching him, his rapid heart rate only increasing the 
pull of the bite.  With desperate rage against everything he hated and 
feared, he struggled to try and push this away and make it end.  Xander 
continued the battle inside; as his arms could only weakly embrace his 
once friend, he tried to hold onto his life.  Even as the last of his 
energy slipped from him and he felt his body stop; his mind grasped 
fiercely at the memories that tried to follow, letting the tangle of 
rage tie them to himself.  Still, a defeated thought wove its way 
through each experience: 'they don't need me now: it's done'.  But just 
as the relief of a lifelong struggle ending relaxed even his mind, 
Buffy's voice gently woke him.     



Buffy lowered him to the floor and began a constant pleading in his ear 
for him to hold on, to stay with them.  She reminded him how much they 
needed and loved him as she bit her own wrist and brought the bleeding 
wound to his lips.  Smiling in relief when he began to suck the blood 
from her on his own, she turned to Willow and nodded as she stroked his 
hair, comforting and encouraging him.  When she pulled her arm gently 
away, she watched him as sleep or death relaxed his face and body.



Buffy lifted his body in her arms as Willow laid the letters on the 
bed.  Leaving the lights off and the door open, they slipped unseen down 
to their car.  Buffy carefully laid Xander down across the back seat and 
got into the passenger side.  Willow took the driver's seat and starting 
the car, they made their way to the freeway and north. 



No-one spoke as they entered the onramp and moved to the left lane, 
passing all the exit signs on their way to escape.  Buffy turned to 
check on Xander's lifeless form and gave Willow a small smile.  Turning 
on the stereo, she found a classic rock station and simply watched as 
the road disappeared ahead into the night.        





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