The Night Of Revelations
by Lil\'Witch
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TITLE: The Night Of Revelations
AUTHOR: Lil'Witch
RATING: PG-13
SUMMARY: Answer to Patrick's Song challenge:
Write a Willowy love song for "Once More with Feeling." It can be just the song or a song in the context of a fic. The song can lead to smoochies or not, to snuggles or not, I leave that in the purgative of the writer. The one requirement:
1) The song must be an original. (Extra points for all Willowy phrases that occur within said song)
STATUS: Complete
DISCLAIMER: Me: Owns nothing. Joss, Mutant Enemy, Fox: Own all recognizable characters and places.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is just a silly experiment. My songwriter skills are well... you'll see, but I had fun writing it
Anything in italics is singing. Willow's POV.
~*~
To be like other girls.
I hear her voice. She sings and it's beautiful. I run in, together with Giles, Anya, Xander and Tara. Giles, who's been acting all weird, Anya and Xander, who are always weird and Tara, who doesn't even look at me anymore.
To fit in in this glittering world.
Don't give me songs.
There's this red demon sitting on the stage, he's wearing a blue suit that really doesn't go well with his complexion.
"She needs backup. Anya, Tara." Giles seems to be back in command-mode.
Don't give me songs.
Anya and Tara join Buffy in her song and all I can do is watch.
Give me something to sing about.
Ahhhhh...
I need something to sing about.
Ahhhhh...
Life's a song
You don't get to rehearse.
And every single verse
Can make it that much worse.
Still my friends
Don't know why I ignore
The million things or more
I should be dancing for.
All the joy
Life sends
Family
And friends
All the twists
And bends
Knowing that
It ends
Well that
Depends
On if they let you go
On if they know enough to know
That when you've bowed
You leave the crowd.
She looks at me. Anya and Tara aren't with her anymore, but I can't tell where they are or when they've gone. All I see is Buffy as she walks up onto the stage, further away from us.
There was no pain
No fear, no doubt
Till they pulled me out
Of Heaven.
So that's my refrain.
I live in Hell
'Cause I've been expelled
From Heaven
I think I was in Heaven
Oh my god. I pulled her out of heaven? But I was so sure. How can you jump into a portal to a hell dimension and end up in heaven? What have I done?
So give me something to sing about.
Please
Give me something...
I see Sweet shake his head. Buffy seems desperate as she looks at me and then she turns and with a flip she's off the stage and on the floor. She dances, faster and faster. This is getting out of control. I have to stop her, but how? Buffy spins wildly around and around and around... and smoke begins to rise from her feet. And before I know what's happening, I speak ancient words, empowering my body with strength to match the slayer's and run forward.
I practically fall into her dance and manage to catch her shoulders. Under normal circumstances she would have flung me off without a second thought, but I'm just as strong as she is for the moment. I can't do this for long so I just hold onto her. The way she looks at me makes me want to cry, she looks so lost, helpless, needy. This is not how I know my slayer.
Let me be
More than you see
I'm singing, I can't believe I'm singing to Buffy, if this leads where I think it is leading I'll be in so much trouble. Not just with Tara, I'm already in trouble with her, but also with Buffy. I never wanted her to know. Well I guess it the night of revelations.
I've always been shy
And never knew why.
You've always been strong
And never ever wrong
When I turned kinda gay
You said it's okay
You've never done me wrong,
Just helped me be strong.
And since you've returned
I've been so concerned.
If I've done you wrong
Can you be strong?
You came to this place
And changed its pace
I'm no loner shy
But now I know why
I trail off, stop singing and just talk to her. I look deep into her eyes and take hold of her hands.
You came into my life
And made me live it
I brought you back to life
So you could live again
So I could live again.
She's still looking at me like she wants to run. I can't let her. So I sing again.
I can never be sorry
There was so much worry
That you were in hell
After you fell
I was selfish to resurrect you
But it's what I had to do
I can never be sorry
To have you back home
With me and the others
It's where you belong.
This is where you belong.
I know it hurts to be living
And you feel like you are always giving
But that's what life is all about
In every whisper, in every loud shout
You give and get
You love and regret
We feel like we are always giving
And always have to go on living.
You have to go on living.
And then I just do it. I lean forward and kiss her. It doesn't last long, just my lips against hers. I give her bottom lip a gentle tug as I lean back. She has her eyes close when I look at her again. I wait till she opens them. She looks at me. Directly at me, with the most confused expression on her face.
Let me be
More than you see.
Let me be
Yours to see.
Whenever you need me, I am near
Wherever we go from here.
I look deep into her eyes, just letting her know that no matter how hard it is, no matter how weak she might feel, I will always be there.
Sweet is clapping. "Now that was a show-stopping number." I can't help but growl at him, but I don't step away from Buffy.
"So you're the little witch that has resisted singing for the most part, with her little counter-spells? Impressive." For a second I feel proud that he is impressed, but than I remember D'Hoffryn, daddy to all vengeance demons, he too was impressed with my abilities.
-This is the result of your power. You will make a fine vengeance demon.-
Those had been his words. Am I so far gone? Could Tara have been right all these times? I can't think, not with Buffy this close, not with what she just told us, not with that red-blue... thing standing there all menacing... and he won't stop talking.
"I can smell your power. I guess the little missus and I should be on our way." He stands up ad looks at Dawn and I've just had about enough.
"Oh, just go pooof."
Pooof.
And he's gone. Everybody is staring at me. Everybody except Dawn. She step forward and sings.
Where do we go from here?
"Where do we go from here?" Buffy and I repeat together. And then everybody joins in.
The battle's done and we kind of won
So we sound our victory cheer
Where do we go from here?
Why is the path unclear
When we know hope is near?
Understand we'll go hand in hand, but we'll walk alone in fear
Tell me!
Where do we go from here?
When does the end appear?
"Bugger this." That was Spike, I spare him a glance as he leaves, but then I'm back with the others, singing.
When do the trumpets cheer?
The curtain's closed on a kiss
God knows, you can tell the end is near
Where do we go from here?
All of us sing and I can tell that it's true. From here on we'll change, go somewhere different. I have no idea what's going to happen, only thing I'm certain of is that I haven't let go of Buffy's hand the entire time. And just now, her grip tightens on my fingers. I've got her and she's got me.
Wherever we go from here.
~*~
The End.