Fade To Black
by wicked
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I can't believe it.
I refuse to believe that she is gone, I look and I see tears but they have hope. I did too just hours ago but that was before.
Oh my god I can't breathe, I am trying but I can't the pain is so bad. The tightening of my chest is squeezing the very essence of my life out inch by bloody inch. How could fate ever be this cruel? I look around and everything is just the way she left it. I feel a tortured laugh erupt as I notice she didn't put her damn pants in the laundry again. Everyone looks at me; some like I am crazy and some like scared. They probably are both right. This can't happen and you still keep your sanity...no...no...no. NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! If I scream it loud enough it will all go away right? Looking around their eyes are still watching me...I choke on a sob.
Legs no longer supporting me I fall to my knees cursing every existence that has brought me to this point. Just this morning we made love and it was ohhhhh so sweet there was cuddles and now...NO!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!! She can't be gone. Doesn't her existence mean anything to you so called Powers That Be? How can you be powerful and take away the only fucking good thing we had?
I lay down on the floor wanting it to envelop me and swallow me whole. Free me from the existence I know that looms in front of me. My eyes close and where I wish for nothing but darkness I see her face; tears running down, hands outstretched. OH MY GOD she doesn't want to leave, can't you bring her back please I am begging!!!! Can't you see she is scared and needs me.
My eyes open trying to escape the screams echoing in my head, she doesn't want to leave me. I have to save her but I know this time I can't, there were no demons, no evil...she is just...
GONE.
OH my god it can't be. I am on my feet rushing out the door not feeling the rocks and glass tearing my feet to shreds. I can't feel pain she can't feel pain.
I push through the doors and push past the nurses needing to see her one last time. Hands grab me but punches are thrown and there is blood everywhere, is it mine? Does it matter?
It wasn't supposed to be like this, if it wasn't a demon then we were supposed to go together oh please god let us go together. I am almost there, I know she is gone but I sense her. Please let me reach her... I hear people screaming as I throw open the door not feeling anything but a sharp sting in my chest. I see her, oh god, oh yes...there she is...this is how it is supposed to be...
I hear my name...don't worry baby they wont take you...no, don't be scared...I feel a hand wrap around mine and everything is right.........
Everything is here in my arms...
Everything fades to black...
The End or The Beginning that is up to you