Confessions from the Lake
by hexx
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Confessions from the Lake
conclusion to the confessions trilogy
none of the characters belong to me, more's the pity.
the poetry is mine
I look into her eyes
and I can see heaven,
I look into her face
and I know peace,
I hear her voice
and know choirs of angels.
And if it must end,
even end tonight,
I know that in all my life
I have done at least this one thing right.
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Willow rolled over in her sleep, one arm searching for a warm spot that was no longer there. Opening her eyes, yet still half asleep, she noticed that though she could still smell the slayer on the pillow (and herself she noted with a smile) that side of the bed was cold. Sitting up she looked around the darkened room then got up and put on a robe.
'She must be down in the kitchen' she thought with a grin, goddess knew she was hungry herself. They had skipped dinner in lieu of smoochies. That thought only widened her smile,' my god that but the girl knew how to kiss!'
Entering the kitchen she found it dark and empty, now she began to get concerned. She checked Dawn's room then the spare room sighing sadly when she found the bed occupied. After a moment's consideration she stooped to kiss the slayer's shadowed brow only to find herself face to face with the wrong slayer.
"Faith!?"
"What 're ya doing Red? One slayer not enough for ya?" Faith smirked. She was a little confused and only half awake but she was never one to pass up a chance to tease the redhead.
"Faith! I thought you were Buffy, I mean you don't look like her but she's been sleeping here and she wasn't upstairs when I woke up and whatareyoudoinghere?"
The brunette began to laugh when Willow plunged into full babble mode. " Easy there Red, B. said I should stay a couple of days. she's probably in the kitchen refueling after the hot and heavies you two were into for half the night."
"Faith that is so not funny right now, I can't find her."
"OK, take it easy, try down by the lake I got the impression she likes to think down there."
Willow felt a little foolish that she hadn't thought of that, Buffy did often sit on the dock when she was thinking about something. "Sorry I woke you Faith, I guess I'll see you in the morning huh?"
"Hang up there a minute Red, why the big panic? You don't really think she'd bail in the middle of the night do you? That's more my kinda thing."
"I don't know . . . I mean it was the first time we . . . well . . . you know, and I guess I didn't think I'd wake up alone. I guess I'm scared that she freaked and doesn't want . . . oh Goddess Faith, I don't know, I just have to find her and make sure she's alright and everything."
"It's OK , go have a look on the dock and if she's not there come get me and I'll help look for her, alright?"
"Thanks Faith, go back to sleep. Sorry I woke you."
Willow opened the front door and could see well enough in the moonlight that there was indeed someone sitting on the dock though she was a little surprised when she found Buffy sitting naked,with only a towel wrapped around her thin frame, her feet dangling in the dark water.
"Buffy?"
"Hey Wills, what are you doing up?"
She tried to cover her anxiety, " Oh, you know, couldn't sleep without my new blanket heater. . . . What are you doing . . .out here . . .um . . . naked?"
"It's OK Willow, I'm not freaking, and I'm not gonna disappear," she had to smile inwardly a little because of the worried look the young witch was wearing. "I just thought you needed to sleep after . . .well . . .after we . . . we made love." Buffy ducked her head and blushed a little. " I just needed to think a little, and decided to take a swim, and didn't figure anyone was around to see sooo..."
Willow was having a little trouble concentrating at the moment, between worrying that Buffy was having second thoughts and now seeing her naked (which was giving rise to a variety of carnal thoughts).
"Buff? Are you OK . . .with . . .you know . . .everything. You're not regretting . . ." She left the thought unfinished.
" Sit for a minute Wills." Willow sat down so that she was facing the slayer with her left foot hanging in the water, she was a bit surprised by how warm the water was.
"I'm sorry I wasn't there when you woke up, I honestly didn't think that you would wake up so soon. And no, no I'm not regretting anything, not one thing. It's just that it's all kinda . . new. Ya know?"
" Did you not . . .like it?" Willow was still a little scared that they had done something that the blonde wasn't ready for. The last thing she wanted to do was something that would make Buffy uncomfortable.''
"What? NO Willow, that's not it at all, please believe me , I liked it. I just . . . I guess I was little worried that . . . well that I wasn't . . . as good, you know? " 'GOD! Listen to me, I wasn't this nervous the first time with Angel.' " I'm just going to blurt this out so bear with me OK? I'm going to make with the big confession here. You remember how I freaked a bit when you told me about you and Tara?" The redhead nodded slowly not entirely sure where this was going. "Well . . . It wasn't so much freaking because you were with another woman . . .It was 'cause the other woman wasn't me."
Willow opened her mouth to interject something but the slayer put two fingers to her lips to silence her for a moment.
" Willow . . . I've thought, and to be honest, fantasized about . . . what we did . . . earlier, for a long time. But when it came time to do the real thing , God, I was so nervous, terrified really. I'm sorry Wills, I know it probably wasn't what you were..."
This time Willow interupted her, but used her lips instead of her fingers. After a moment, when she was sure she had Buffy's undevided attention, she broke the kiss, only slightly less out of breath than the slayer.
" Buffy, I only have one question, did YOU like it?"
"Oh Wills, I loved it, I mean once I dealt with the whole scared shitless part, it was, well it was wonderfull. Did you . . .um . . .like it?"
"It was" she paused a minute to find the right words, "it was perfect. Listen Buffy, I know how you feel, trust me, the first time I slept with Tara I was so scared I think I actually cried. But it was still great because I did it with her, because I loved her. Tonight, tonight I was almost that scared again. I've wanted this for so long I was terrified that I was going to srew it up. And to top that off, I'm still having 'pinch me I'm sleeping' attacks because I have a hard time believing that someone . . . as beautiful as . . . you . .would want me."
"I'm just worried that we rushed it a little, and I don't want you to feel like you had to."
"Willow, I wanted to, I WANT to." She pulled Willow to her and held her close, whispering into her ear as seductively as she could. "I want to make love to you." Then she kissed her, slowly building the intensity, her tongue gently caressing the wiccan's lips until she was given access inside, teasing Willow's tongue out so she was able to gently suck on it. When she finally pulled back they were both panting. "I love you."
She smiled and stood up, taking Willow's hand to help her stand.
"Before we go inside and explore this conversation further I think we may need to cool off a bit." With that, the slayer scooped her into her arms and tossed her unceremoniously into the lake. By the time Willow came up, sputtering, Buffy had joined her, calming her angry squawks with another searing kiss. Soon, their naked bodies were pressed togther and the only words to be heard were those of passion and pledges of love.
Epilogue
A single pair of dark brown eyes watched the two women for a few minutes before turning away from the window with a small chuckle. As Faith made her way back to her room Dawn stepped out into the hallway.
"Is everything alright Faith?"
"Yeah Little D. . . . everything's just the way it should be."
author's note: I had a lot of fun with this one, so I changed my mind. Keep your eyes open for more. If you have any
suggestions, please let me know. ;)