I'll Remember You
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I'll Remember You
Slayer125 (slayer1252001@yahoo.com)
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Dealing with the loss and pain of separation. Song by Sophie Zelmani
Her lips are burning my skin with its heat. I fight the tears burning my eyes as I absorb the touches that are heaven and hell. I am so tired of hearing it's wrong. Then I choke on a sob as her tongue teases my nipple. I lie; I want to hear it's wrong at least for the next twenty years because at least she would be with me.
Wrapping my fingers in her hair I tug gently, forcing those eyes that I could get lost in, to meet mine. I feel an ache as I see the unshed tears in her eyes as well.
"Please..." A broken voice, I know not if it is hers or mine.
Wrapping legs around her hips I raise myself up and push my clit against hers. If I focus on this, I will be ok. Her breathing is heavy and tendrils of her hair are damp with perspiration. I smile a little as I remember her saying girls don't sweat, my response was she would by the time I was done with her. Her finger trembles as it runs down my cheekbone.
"Don't." Ok that was my voice; the least I can do is be strong for her. Make this decision that has torn her apart a little easier. I could be a bitch, I mean I have a lot of practice at it but she does not deserve that.
"I am so sorry." Her voice sounds so sad if I had anything left of my shattered heart, it was swept away like ashes in the wind.
"Shhhhhh..." I kiss her lips and the light touch quickly turns into a deep melding. Her tongue dances against mine and I feel her teeth graze my lip. I grab her neck pulling her deeper inside of me, tilting our faces so I get full access. She whimpers and it is so sweet. Our breathing is one as I start to move against her. Nipples are touching against each other. Faster and faster she moves against me seeking to find the release only I can give. I feel her dampness as our bodies rub and then I move back and position her right above me. Easing my fingers inside of her I watch her ride me. My fingers are delving deep inside of her moist heat as muscles clench and contract burying me deeper inside of her.
I reach up and grasp her breast in my hand. Her cheeks are flushed and my eyes lock on a drop of sweat trailing its way down her body. The slender arch of her body is hinting a close release so I start to move faster and deeper. I want to bring her satisfaction but a tear falls as I realize I want this to last forever. She is my other half, why could I have not realized it before? Before I lost her and she sought the emotional support of another.
Is there a pill for heartbreak? I am drawn out of my thoughts by her choked sob and our eyes meet. Both of us have tears trailing down our cheeks as we realize the sun is creeping over the horizon. Harder and faster she rides me, our eyes locked until I plunge deep and curve my fingers inside of her. Losing herself in the moment she collapses against me and I hold her as she cries.
"I don't want this." I don't know if she is referring to leaving me or to us, the latter thought heartbreaking in itself.
"You know you have to do what is right for you." My hands stroke her hair, trying to be strong. Her sobs are raking through her body much like the orgasm only moments before. "If you need me..." God this is hard, for three years she was mine and now...she really can't be doing this. It's a dream right? No dreams are nice this is the cold, hard, numbing truth.
"I am here for you always baby." She nods and I notice eyes that are red and swollen from crying. Goosebumps cover my flesh as I watch her. Maybe I should leave and let them be together but I know I can't. I will stay in the shadows and be her protector, her guardian.
"You deserve better than me." She looks up startled. Wrapping my hand in her trembling fingers I hear whispered words laced with anguish "Don't ever...say..." I watch as she swallows hard..."You are the best and I love you...god do I love you...but she needs me."
I want to tell her how much I need her as well but I am quiet. If I open my mouth I will beg her to stay. "Will...I..." Why am I so stupid that I can't talk now?
"Will I see you?"
She collapses in tears and holds me tight in her arms. I keep hearing whimpers and choked sobs, words of apologies mixed in. Pushing her face back I gather strength I don't know I had. "Go do what you have to do sweetheart. When it feels like nobody is with you, when she isn't what you need, think of me baby, I am in your heart..." The radio starts to play a song that just makes it harder. We both stop and listen
I'll remember you
It's daybreak, and you are asleep,
I can hear you breathe now,
Your breath is deep
But before I go,
I'll look at you one last time,
I can hear a heart beat, is it yours or is it mine?
I look at your lips, I know how soft they can be,
Did they know what they wanted, the times they kissed me,
And your hands, that I've held in mine,
Now they're reposing on the pillow,
Will they ever miss me sometime?
She is crying but gets up out of the bed it is too hard for us both.
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
Your eyes, that always make me shiver,
Now they're closed, they just sometimes twitch a little,
And your body, I could hold for an hour,
It sent me to heaven, with its heat and power,
I'll remember you, you will be there in my heart,
I'll remember you, but that is all that I can do,
But I'll remember
She wants to come back to bed but I shake my head no. The least I can do is be her strength. With a trembling hand she touches the doorknob. My heart is breaking and her sobs are echoing through the room. As the door closes I swear I feel her with me.
"I'll remember you." I whisper allowing the heartbreak to overcome me finally. Maybe...I pray...she'll be back.