Amoureuse
by Didge
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A/N: With apologies to Kiki Dee for altering the gender of her song and the last chorus. I heard this song recently after knowing it for many years and knew that I had to do something with it so here it is. Special thanks go to "D" for making me sound less British.
BTW Reviews please!! My ego needs feeding or beating down
AMOUREUSE
Willow was lying in bed trying to get a handle on her emotions. It was a strange time just now, her last year of high school and she had all these acceptance packages from different Universities, even some in Europe and now she was expected to decide what she wanted to do with the rest of her life. Everybody expected her to leave Sunnydale and go to one of the 'Ivy League' schools back East or even leave the country and perhaps go to Oxford, but Willow couldn't decide what she really wanted to do. She gently moved her head and looked around the bedroom which was becoming more visible as the early morning light filtered in through the drapes.
Strands of light upon a bedroom floor
Change the night through an open door
I'm awake but this not my home
For the first time I'm not alone
Her gaze finally settled on the person lying next to her, who was asleep with a faint smile on her beautiful face. Willow gently stroked a stray tendril of hair off Buffy's face and continued to gaze at the sleeping girl.
Reaching out I touch another skin
Breathing out as she is breathing in
Deep inside I feel my soul aflame
Can my life ever be the same?
The redheads face grew serious as she continued to gaze at the blonde. Should she have said something sooner? Should she have admitted her feelings for Buffy when she first realised how much she cared for the young slayer? Was it too late to admit her feelings now?
I should have told her
I'd do anything if I could hold her
For just another day, for just another day
Her love is something I will not forget
When I am far away, when I am far away
I feel the rainfall of another planet
Another planet
Yesterday after school the whole gang had met up in the library, Xander, Oz, Buffy, Giles and her. There hadn't been any research, the demons seemed quiet just now, but they had all turned up out of habit. Because there was no research, Buffy had started asking her if she had decided where she was going after graduation and this had turned into gentle teasing of her by Xander which had resulted in everyone teasing Xander about his limited choices of things to do with his life. Oz had left early, a Dingoes rehearsal. Xander had gone with him, to get away from the teasing Willow thought. She had been going to go as well but Buffy had asked her to stay and help her finish some French homework she had but when Giles had retired to his office Buffy had become serious.
"Will can I ask you something?" the blonde had enquired. Willow left off trying to decipher Buffy's attempt at French conjugation and looked at her friend.
"What's up Buff?"
"Have you really not decided where you are going after graduation?"
Willow, noticing the sombre mood of the blonde, grew nervous. "No, well not really, Mom wants me to go to Harvard, Dad keeps going on about some University in Israel where I can learn about my heritage, various other relatives offer their ideas of their favourite schools and to be honest I just can't decide what to do. I know that if I listen to my family I'll end up more confused than I am now." Willow finally had to stop for breath and nearly stopped breathing altogether when Buffy reached across and took her hand.
"I just know one thing Will, I'll miss you whatever you decide."
Willow looked at her friend, slightly surprised at Buffy's confession. "Huh how do you mean Buff?" Buffy's face altered as if she had finally come to a decision about something.
"I need to talk to you Will but not here. Somewhere we won't be disturbed."
Willow was slightly worried by the grave nature of Buffy's statement. "Well Mom and Dad are home for a change so we can't go to my house. What's wrong Buffy?"
"Mom's gone to L.A. and won't be back till tomorrow so we can go to my house. Grab your stuff." Buffy stood up and almost dragged the redhead to her feet, totally ignoring Willow's question.
Buffy didn't speak a word as the two girls left the school and headed for Buffy's house and the redhead was too worried about what was wrong with her friend to question her further and just allowed herself to be almost dragged to Revello Drive. When they arrived, Buffy steered Willow into the living room and took her friend's bag. She sat the redhead on the couch while she proceeded to pace across the room. Finally Buffy looked at her friend's distressed features and stopped her pacing.
"Will I've come to a decision, I've been too frightened of you leaving me to tell you before but you're leaving me anyway so I might as well just put it all out there."
Willow's concern deepened as Buffy babbled and when the blonde moved in front of her and took her hands the redhead shot from worried to frightened wondering what Buffy was going to tell her.
"Wi..." Buffy's voice faltered so she cleared her throat and tried again. "Will I think I'm in love with you." As Willow tried to take in what Buffy had just said she saw her friend frown. "No I don't think I'm in love with you, I know it. Willow Rosenberg I love you."
"What! When? What!" Willow shook her head trying to clear up the confusion that was running rampant in her brain. Then she looked at her friend who was now squatting in front of her, still holding her hands, looking nervously back at her. Still fighting to regain control of her swirling emotions Willow asked the first question that came into her head. "Buffy what are you talking about?"
The blonde, still looking anxious, cleared her throat again, "I felt something when I first met you and as we've become closer I've...I've realised that I love you, not just as a friend but as someone I'd like to spend my life with...I know you're wigging and it's a valid wig, but I just thought that you should know this before you fly off to God knows where after graduation. I don't expect anything from you and I certainly don't want to come between you and Oz but I just felt that I had to tell you."
It was Willow's turn to start pacing. Pulling her hands from Buffy's grasp the redhead stood up and slowly made her way to the opposite side of the room then turned to face Buffy.
"Did you mean what you just said?" Buffy lowered her eyes and nodded her head. Willow's world brightened and she forged ahead. "Buff, I'm madly in love with you. You're the most amazing person I've ever met. My life...it's been so much better since we met, I've become such a better person through knowing you that I didn't want to drive you away by admitting my feelings for you."
During Willow's impassioned speech Buffy had slowly risen from her crouched position and crossed the room until she was standing right in front of her friend and as Willow finished talking Buffy took her hands again and looked up into her face. Blue eyes looked into green and two souls were bared to each other, no words were needed as both girls leaned into each other until their lips met.
The kiss started slow and gentle but quickly escalated, both girls wanted more. Buffy was sucking Willow's bottom lip when the redhead's tongue pressed against her friend's lips requesting access. Willow felt Buffy's lips open slightly and then her friends tongue greeted her own; the effect was electric. Both girls moaned gently at the unfamiliar contact which seemed so right. As they continued kissing Willow felt Buffy's hands gently stroking her back, her own hands were returning the complement but she wanted, no she needed more. Buffy was wearing a camisole with an overshirt and Willow's hands were soon lifting the back of the shirt and pulling the camisole free from the waistband of the blondes' skirt. There was another tingle of electricity when Willow's hand made contact with skin and as her hand stroked over Buffy's back Willow felt her sweater move upward as the blonde sought skin contact of her own. As the kissing continued, both sets of hands continued the heated exploration over semi-exposed backs, over and under bra straps, and over the rounded edges of waists when Willow felt Buffy's hand slide round her side to her front. The slayer's hand moved upward cupping her partner's breast Willow pushed forward trying to strengthen the feeling the contact was causing.
Buffy broke the kiss and looked at her friend. "Willow we need to stop." Buffy couldn't suppress the giggle that arrived when she saw the pout her statement provoked.
"Don't wanna"
"Willow, sweetie, were standing in the middle of the living room. This is not the place to be." Buffy paused. "If you want to continue?"
The redhead's eyes lit up. "Oh I want to continue, please."
Buffy's giggle at her friend's response was quickly suppressed and her face became serious. "Will we need to talk about this before things get out of hand and something happens that neither of us wants."
Willow looked into blue eyes where she saw only love sparkling. "Buff we've wasted so much time being stupid and afraid to admit our feelings for each other, can't the talk wait until...forever?"
Buffy took a moment to consider and then taking Willow's hand she set off for the stairs. "Lets go upstairs." When they reached the bottom of the stairs they stopped for another kiss and as they went up side by side Willow couldn't stop herself from placing her hand on Buffy's ass, feeling the toned muscles moving as they climbed the stairs.
At the top of the stairs Buffy pushed Willow against the wall and continued her assault on the redhead's lips. While the kissing continued, Buffy became more passionate. She slid her leg between Willow's; pressing her crotch to Willow's thigh, she began to move her hips creating much needed friction. When Willow felt the dampness her obviously excited friend's action was producing she felt her own moisture begin to flow from her. 'Well that's it as far as these pantyhose are concerned' Willow giggled internally at the mental non sequitur.
Finally Buffy broke the kiss and half dragged Willow into her bedroom. After she closed the door, both girls, by unspoken consent, removed their clothing. Willow looked lovingly at her soon to be lover as Buffy stood there in her sports bra, which clearly showed her erect nipples and a white thong which just as clearly showed the damp patch at her crotch. Willow herself was only wearing a matching light green bra and panty set which was displaying a similar dark stain at the crotch. After a moment, when both girls had taken in the sight before them Buffy threw off her bra and as Willow reached behind her to undo her own bra the blonde stepped in and placed a kiss in the centre of the redhead's chest. She then proceeded to kiss her way down Willows body while at the same time she slid Willow's panties down smooth, slender legs. With a gentle pressure from Buffy, Willow found herself naked on the bed while Buffy stripped off her own thong.
Buffy stood there just looking at Willow and the redhead returned the complement her eyes wandering down the blondes body taking in the blue eyes, seemingly brighter than usual and the slight smile playing on Buffy's lips. She took in the slender figure, nicely shaped breasts still showing evidence of erect nipples and the slim waist finally ending up at her crotch with the neatly trimmed pubic hair just showing the pout of Buffy's sex lips. Willow held out her arms and Buffy joined her on the bed where the kissing started again only this time with more fervour. While they kissed, Willow felt Buffy's hands tracing the contours of her body while her own hand almost of its own volition went to Buffy's breast and began to tease the hard nipple. Buffy rolled Willow onto her back, straddling her waist she took the redhead's hands and held them above her head while her mouth moved down to suckle Willow's breast. As Willow's back arched trying to get more contact on her breast, she bent her leg causing her thigh to connect with Buffy's wet pussy. The movement caused the blonde to press down and work her hips leaving a trail of moisture on the redhead's thigh. With her excitement continuing to build, Willow felt Buffy move her body to her side and her hands were released as Buffy returned to kissing her mouth. The slayer's hand moved over Willow's stomach then a finger was gently separating her lubricated labia. Willow brought her hands down from above her head and while she wrapped one arm around Buffy to pull her closer trying to get as much skin contact as she could. She sent the other hand southward until she felt Buffy's pussy. She used her finger to open the moist slit allowing her access to the liquid heat of her lover's inner lips.
Both girls were mirroring each other now. Mouth moaned into mouth as tongues duelled each other, fingers swept in rhythm through wet heated sex and bodies writhed trying to maintain the maximum amount of contact. Willow felt the tension mounting in her body until finally, like an over wound elastic band, it snapped. Her hips arched off the bed as her pussy pulsated against Buffy's now stationary fingers which were buried deep inside her. Almost at the same time she felt Buffy's body go rigid and her own fingers, buried in the blonde, were massaged by a strong ripple. When the two girls' orgasms subsided, Willow was finally able to focus her eyes to look across at Buffy. She could see the muscles in the girl's thighs still twitching, while feeling her own pussy give an occasional shudder sending ripples through her body. Buffy managed to raise herself enough to give Willow a gentle kiss.
"Thank you." Buffy's sweat slicked face was serious as she caressed her lover's still trembling body, "I never knew anything could feel like that. You're amazing Will" Feeling the love coming from Buffy Willow just snuggled closer and felt the blonde take her in her arms. The two young lovers lay there, not speaking, just enjoying the feeling of being so close, so loved.
Close together in the afterglow
I remember how her loving flow
Turned the key into another world
Made a woman of a simple girl
That was then, last night, but this is now. The morning light was growing stronger although the drapes still kept the room in semi-darkness and Willow was still pondering all the possibilities.
Daylight comes as we both know it must
Soon my fantasy will turn to dust
But I would give her anything she asked
If my first love could be my last?
Buffy's eyes slowly opened and she focused on Willow a gentle smile lighting up her face. Willow returned the smile and then leaned over giving her Buffy a tender kiss.
"What a nice way to wake up." Buffy bathed in the loving vibes coming from the redhead.
"Mmmm..." Was Willow's only response as she snuggled into Buffy's side. Buffy wrapped her arms around her lover and the two just enjoyed their warm, tender feelings for a few moments before Willow felt Buffy stiffen.
"We have to talk Will, but first, I have to go to the bathroom."
Willow waited until Buffy left the room then got out of bed and scurried to the door. Opening the door as quietly as she could, she saw Buffy close the bathroom door. Then as quickly and quietly as she could, she rushed across the landing and down the stairs. It took her a moment to find her bag before she rushed back upstairs, closing the bedroom door just as she heard Buffy coming out of the bathroom; she thrust her bag under the bed and was back in bed when Buffy returned. Buffy didn't get back in the bed but sat on the edge.
"We need to talk Will." Buffy had a serious look on her face.
"What with you like that?" Willow smirked, waving her hand to indicate Buffy's nakedness. Buffy blushed and dragged a robe off the chair beside the bed and drew it around her shoulders.
"Will what are we going to do? We've only just really found each other and in a few weeks, at the best a few months, you're going to be at the other side of the country, if not the world. Nothing can come of this, is last night all we're going to have? One night to remember?" Willow leaned up and put a finger against the blonde's lips. Stopping her from talking, she pulled her bag out from under the bed opened it and took out a letter which she handed to Buffy. The blonde read the address then looked at Willow, puzzlement written large on her face.
"U.C. Sunnydale. Will what's..." Willow replaced her finger on her lover's lips.
"That's my application to go to college here next year. Oh isn't that where you're going?"
The blonde's face lit up for a moment but then she frowned, "No Will I can't let you do this, give up the chance to go to a top school just to stay here with me. Even after last night with the confessing and the happies. It's not fair to you."
"I'm not doing this for you Buff; I'm doing this for me. I love you Buffy, have for a long time, and even you should realise that I didn't write that last night. If I'm as good as everyone seems to think then I don't need to go to a top school to get a good degree and Sunnydale is far from a bad one. I decided that I needed you in my life even though it was only as a friend so I did some research and staying in Sunnydale means I can design my own curriculum which I might not be able to do elsewhere and if I do go somewhere else how would I be able to study, thinking of you all the time and wondering what was happening? Also over the last couple of years I've found out that the things under the bed and in the closet really exist, that evil really exists and I've helped some to fight it and it's a good fight Buffy and I want in and..."
This time it was Buffy's turn to bring about silence with a well placed finger
"Ok Will I get that but what about Oz? You have a boyfriend now and I don't want to split you two up."
"Oz is nice and I think he likes me but he's not you Buffy. If you had a choice between, oh I don't know say a glass of water or a mocha which one would you choose?" Willow cocked an eyebrow at her friend. "You'd go for the chocolaty goodness right? Oz is Oz, when I explain it to him I'm sure he'll understand. It may hurt but he'll understand."
"Are you sure? This is what you want? Everything, school, Oz. everything?" Buffy gestured round with her hand and looked questioningly at Willow.
"Yes Buff I'm sure. Now come back to bed, we've a lot of missed opportunities to make up for."
After a moments hesitation Buffy threw off her robe and slid into bed and the waiting arms of her lover.
Now I've told her
I'll do anything if I can hold her
For just another day, for just another day
This love is something we will not regret
When we are far away, when we are far away
We'll feel the rainfall of another planet
Another planet.