Fix You

by Bwriter

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Author - Bwriter
Title - Fix You
Pairing - B/W
Rating - PG
Spoilers - story 4 in the Hurt series

~lyrics~

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Buffy sat down with her coffee in front of her as she checked through the mail.

When she spotted the England postage mark, she threw the other letters on the counter before grabbing her coffee and taking the letter upstairs, where she could read it without being interrupted.

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Buffy sighed as she re-read the letter for the fifth time before reaching over to turn on the radio.

Some old rock song was just coming to a close, and she was about to switch the station, when she heard the familiar notes of a song start.

~When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse ~

Man, that's how she had felt when she was first brought back, when she had tried so hard to self destruct.

When she had turned to Spike.

~And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?~

Had she lost Willow? From the sounds of her letter, the redhead was slowly learning to be herself again, and for that Buffy was grateful.


~Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you~

She couldn't fix Willow, only Willow could. Buffy had thought that towards the end of last year that she and Willow were getting back to how they were.

Then Warren happened, and she'd had to fight her best friend.

She wondered if Willow realised she had held back. She knew why, and she felt guilty for it.

She hadn't held back when it had been Angel, Angelus, she had been fighting, she went all out in the end, even sent Angel to hell.

Buffy had never been more glad to have Xander. She hated to think of what would have happened had he not saved the day.

~And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth~

But she would Buffy vowed. As soon as she felt she could, Buffy was going to make sure her best friend knew exactly how she felt about her.

~Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you~

All she needed was for Willow to come home first.

End

Lyrics are by ColdPlay - song, Fix You