FF: Slide (Part to of change)

["Clarke, Carol A - Hazelwood" <CAClarke2@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

Title: Slide
Note: Change: part two
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Buffy and Willow and the rest of the gang belong to Joss Wheldon
and Mutant Enemy. 
Dizzy Up the Girl belongs to The Goo Goo Dolls
Summary -Lyrics are involved that and tears. Continued from Change
Warning: Major Depression Alert! May result in the use of behavioral
Medication or chocolate. 

"Hey Buffy! That Willow's new CD?"
"Yep, that would be the CD you bought her for Hanukkah And don't think she
didn't tell me you side the first part of this sound was about me."

You're cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene
You're monochrome delirious
You're nothing that you seem

"Hey Buff, you are beautiful and you are differently not what you seem,
slayer girl."

I'm drowning in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease
You're dirty and you're sweet
You know you're everything I need

"The dirty lusting thing wouldn't be you Xander?"
"What was that part about vanity? Hey that hurt Buff."
"Xander it was a pillow.
"But thrown very hard. This is the part that reminds me of Will."

I wanna kick at the machine
That made you piss away your dreams
And tears at your defenses

"Sometimes when she is major Hacker girl I wished I would have said exactly
that to her."
"Yeah Willow Zones when she is on line Xander.

Till there's nothing there but me
You're angry when you're beautiful
Your love is such a tease

"Til there's nothing left but me, Xander did you ever feel that way about
somebody?"

I'm drowning in your dizzy noise
I wanna feel your scream

"Yeah, I always felt I was drowning in Cordilia. "
"You really loved, huh?"
"Yeah, It never would have lasted anyway."

Let's pretend
My January friend
I'm wantin you again 
Every single heart that beats pretend

"So Xander, we just going to sit here and play music critic for the evening.
I thought you had an orgasmic friend now to do Friday night things with."

Don't cry out loud
You've gotta bear your cross
But never dream too loud

"Hey can't a guy just want to hang out with one of his best buds, Buff?"
"Xander I know she told you."

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one
I saw the world spin beneath you 

"Yeah, but Tara seems nice. Hey at least she doesn't howl at the moon."
"Xander, I know she told you everything, hence you're beating around the
brush. I just don't have the energy right now, So get to the point."

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew 
What's the things they never showed you
That swallowed the light from the sun
Inside your room.

Comin down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder

"Buffy, you didn't come home for 3 days what was she so post to do? You're
her best friend."

Gone away 
Who knows where you been 
You take all your lies
And wish them all away

I somehow doubt 
We'll ever be the same
There's too much poison 
And confusion on your face

I can feel it
I didn't mean it.
Can I see you
I think I love you

"Well, Buff say something."
"What do you want me to say?"

And it won't take long to burn
Through the nothing that you've learned

"Just let me in, Ok, Willow and Tara big adjustment. But Buffy you saved the
world. You got the major. There are a lot scarier things then a couple of
lesbian witches. Buffy she's best friend and she has always been there for
you. If she's happy I don't understand way your still wiggin. Buffy, Willow
afraid to come home."

And you hide in your room 
And the light burns away
And you move from the truth
It's all so far from you.

"I'm sorry. Tell her, that tomorrow I'll move back in with mom. I don't want
to be in her way."
"No you tell her. I am not going to play middleman for you to. Your friends
you have been through worse then this. I love you both and I don't want to
lose you."

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now

"But you did? Will loved you and you never even noticed her. You just
followed me and any other girl that caught your fancy."
"That was harsh, and I'm fresh out of master's bone for you to turn into
talcum power."
"I'm sorry Xander, I was making a comparison. It wasn't about you it was
about me and it came out all wrong."

And all I can taste is this moment 
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight.

"This is about that thing with Faith isn't it?"
"Xander I know how much it hurt Willow when you slept with Faith but I
really don't care who you sleep with, and I way do not want to know about
you and Anya."

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.

Buffy I am the first to admit Faith -Big mistake. But I wasn't taking about
my thing with Faith I was talking about you thing with Faith."
"That Bitch she told you."
"Buffy, Faith did you ever know Faith to talk about anything other than sex
or slaying?"
"I can't believe she told you. Does Will know?"

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming 
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know your alive.

"Do you want her to know? Wouldn't it make your reaction to her coming out a
little harder to understand."
"You would tell her, Please Xander, I'll do anything."
"Buff, what is going on here. Willow tells me she's in love, and you have
run of to moms. Then she tells me your ok with it. Then she calls me up
crying because you can be just friends any more. When I was at Tara's I only
got ever other word. So what the hell is going on?"

Just another sequel 
Just another reason for you
Just another sequel 
Just another reason for your lies.

"Please Xander, I will tell you everything but you have got to promise me
you will never tell Will about Faith."

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

"Why should Will care who you fuck? She never did before even when it was
Angel?"

"Xander, Faith was a mistake. And not because she was a girl. After Angel I
couldn't trust myself with anyone. You remember Scott. And there was the
whole slayer thing. At least Faith could defend herself. That and Faith was
only in it for the fuck. She just wanted "to steer you round the curves."
When you wanted to go talk to her before she officially joined the forces of
evil. I told you that the guy's she slept with were a joke to her. Xander
everyone Faith slept with was a joke to her. Me included."
"Well at least she never tired to kill you, no wait she did do that"
"Yeah, Faith had an interesting way of treating lovers. You're lucky you
only slept with her once."

I wanna wake up where you are 
I won't say anything at all.

"You sleep with her more than once?"
"Can you turn this off for a while Xander?"
"Yep, big mistake that was me."
"Like how many times?"
"Does it matter?"
"Normally I would say no, but since we seem to share a major millstones in
common. As in huge amounts of stuff I never realized before. Major mega
space is big stuff in common."
"Xander we slept with the same person, I would get carried away."
"Ok then let me cap it up for you. The first women either of us sleep with,
same. She was the first women you sleep with right."
"Yes, Angel 17th birthday. Major disaster. Faith homecoming dance. Add in
Parker and Riley and yes you have my whole sexual history. Happy now."
"Ok, but I am still right about the first women thing."
"Ok, so what?"
"Let me finish. We both dated people we shouldn't have in high school. You
Angel and me Cordilia. We both still love them even though it was never
meant to be."
"You got two, still waiting on Space big."
"We both loved Willow, and didn't realize it until she moved on and went out
with some else."

"I think I'll turn the music back on."
"I hit it on the head didn't I."
"Yes."
"So the running away had nothing to do with Willow coming out did it."
"No."
"You're in love with her, I can see it in your eyes."
"Yes, but she has Tara and I want her to be happy."
"Buffy you have to tell her how you feel. Even if the two of can't be
together your friendship is to important to throw away."
"Xander I did tell her. It just made her cry. Now I don't know what to do.
Everytime I see Tara I want to rip her head off."
"Buffy, from the minute Willow started going out with Oz you wanted to rip
his head off. You got through it. "
"How do you know?"
I am not as dumb as I look. Buff you remember when you tried out for
Cheerleader our sophomore year."
"Yes, Amy's mom had stolen her body."
"Yep, and you put under that blood vengeance spell."
"Why am I not loving this?"
"You were babbling, you also told me I was your Xander shaped friend. I was
one of the girls. Burst my bubble. Then when Willow and Giles went into the
office to get something for you. It was a long time ago. Well you started
babbling about Willow's butt. I think the words were Will's got a great ass.
I think about it all the time."
"I did not."
"Buffy, thankfully the other never hear you, but you let it be know you had
the hots for Willow."
"Oh, and you never said anything."
"What was there to say? And I never said anything about Faith either. I
never will. Willow will only find out from you or somebody else."
"Thanks it means a lot to me. I can't believe you knew I played for both
teams that long ago."
"Well to tell you the truth. After what you said under the influence of a
spell about Willow, I thought you were gay. I know I still tried to ask you
out."
"Xander you did ask me out, which does seem strange now."
"Well, you did the Owen thing and I thought maybe I was wrong. It could have
been the spell taking."
" And the jealous Angel phase?"
"What phases I still hate the guy."
"You're a good friend Xander."
"There is one thing I thought I heard. You play on both sides right so I
still got a shot?"
"Xander, No you will never have a shot. I love you I just do love you. And
yes I'm Bi."
"Still seeing Teutonic commando guy?"
"Yes, but I'm not sure about Riley. It has Angel doom written all over it."
"And Willow."
"Willow is with Tara. Remember slayer in jealousy rage here."
"At least you admit it."
"Xander do you thing Willow will forgive me."
"Won't know until you talk to her. But has she ever not forgiven you."
"I could kiss you but then you would have to die a hideous death."
'I'm going to leave now. You have given me pigman thoughts and I must find
Anya."
"Ewe, more then I wanted to know."
"Buffy, Willow and Tara went to the Wicca party in Anderson hall. I bet you
could find them there."
"Thanks."

I wanna wake up were you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide


Note: Songs in order of appearance: 1. Dizzy 2. January Friend 3. Black
Balloon 4. Hate this Place 5. Extra Pale 6. All Eyes on Me 7. Iris 8. Slide.


Buffy: I don't play well with others.