My Salvation
by Bwriter
Part eleven
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Part eleven
Buffy didn't know how long they sat there on the side of the road. She didn't really care. She knew that she couldn't go on like she had been. She knew she needed help but she didn't know who to ask for it.
As her tears stopped she raised her head to look at Willow. Seeing matching tears falling down her cheeks tried wiping them away with her thumbs.
"Please don't cry."
Willow smiled through her tears and said, "how can I not when your in so much pain?" though never expected an answer.
Buffy looked at her and just knew it was the right time to tell her how she felt.
"I love you."
Willow's smile made Buffy feel better but when she heard Willow's declaration of love she pulled her into her arms again and kissed her letting all her passion, love and trust show through.
After they had both calmed Willow moved back over to her side of the car and reached into the back seat for her backpack. Grabbing it, she riffled through until she found what she was looking for. Pulling out the face wipes she gave one to Buffy and took one herself.
"It'll take away the puffiness from around your eyes."
Buffy accepted it with gratitude really not wanting to show up at the beach with big red puffy eyes.
"We better get going or the guys are gonna send out a search party."
"You okay?"
"No, but we can talk about it later. Right now I just want to have one relaxing day at the beach."
"Okay. What swimsuit did u bring?" Willow looked Buffy up and down as she asked.
With a smirk Buffy replied, "well your just gonna have to wait and see." Getting back to the talk they would be having later Buffy continued, "It means a lot that I can talk to you about this. I really don't want to discuss it with strangers."
Willow smiled at her but was secretly thinking that she might have to. Remembering her conversation with Giles she remembered she still had to ask Buffy if she wanted to stay over.
"You want to sleep over at mine tonight? We can make it like a slumber party and rent videos and eat way too much."
"I would Will but I can't see Giles letting me." Plus you would only hear the dreams then.
"Well I've already cleared it with him so we're good to go."
Great I can't say no now or she'll think something's up.
"You supply the food and I'll get the pizzas."
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They arrived at the beach to find everyone already there. Xander was standing around a mini barbeque cooking the burgers, Cordy was taking a swim to cool off, Oz and Devon were playing soccer and Lori was lying getting a tan. Buffy hadn't really talked to Lori much as she was always off doing other things and hardly ever with the group, but she knew from Willow that she and Oz had been dating for a while and were in love.
Plopping down the bags she walked over to Xander to say hey while willow made herself comfortable and laid out two towels for them to lie on.
"Yo Xand, are the burgers ready yet?" Buffy had skipped breakfast and just had juice so she was pretty hungry.
"Hey Buff, yeah give 'em a few more minutes and you can eat. Where's Will?"
"She's over by Lori" Looking over Buffy saw Willow removing her clothing so that she was left in her bikini. She felt her mouth go dry at the sight. It was all black. The panties had diamond shapes decorating the front. She noticed that when she turned that there was writing on the back — Sexy Momma.
"Xand I think I'll just go sit by Will for a while" His laughter followed her the whole way over.
"Hey Will nice costume." Buffy raked her eyes over her girlfriend as she was telling her this. She smiled when she saw the faint blush that spread over Willow's body when she said this as it nearly always did when she complimented her.
"Well it is kinda hot out, you should really have on less clothing. You could get sunstroke otherwise." Willow was hiding her grin but not very well.
Buffy shrugged before slipping off her cut-offs and then her tank top to revel a one-piece blue swimsuit. Willow had a pout on her face when Buffy looked up.
"What?" Buffy was suddenly feeling like she should put her clothes back on. Willow had never seen this much of her before. What of she was disappointed with her? She had worn the one-piece because there was still visible bruising and marks on her body that it hid. A bikini would have shown it all off.
Willow had been watching Buffy's face and could almost hear what she was thinking. Cursing herself for being stupid she stood and leaned in to place a kiss on Buffy's lips not caring who saw them.
"I forgot. Sorry. You look beautiful." Leaning back so she could look into Buffy's eyes she saw all of Buffy's barriers come down letting her see all the pain, hate, fear and love Buffy had in her before they came back up again. Vowing to herself that they would work this out she pulled Buffy down and made her lay on her stomach on she could put lotion on her back.
As Willow's hands smoothed in the cool lotion Buffy found herself drifting off. She was rudely woken by Oz kicking the ball over in their direction by accident. It hit her in the side and she had to swallow her grunt of pain so he wouldn't feel bad and so Willow wouldn't worry. However Willow noticed the grimace of pain on Buffy's face and scooted closer placing a kiss on the nape of her neck.
"Sorry Buffy. You okay?" When the pain subsided she managed to speak.
"Yeah I'm good Oz. No worries." She felt Willow place another small kiss on the nape of her neck and thought that the pain had been worth it for those two small kisses.