My Salvation
by Bwriter
Part thirteen
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Part thirteen — just a small update — I will get back to this story full time this week and hopefully wrap it up - Bwriter
Buffy sat staring at her hands while Willow fidgeted with her t-shirt. Not being able to take anymore Buffy started.
"I'm scared."
"Of me?" Willow's question had Buffy lifting her eyes to hers in shock.
"God no! Never of you. I'm scared of me. I know I'm gonna mess this up and I know I can't stop that, but I just don't want to lose you and I know that I will and it terrifies me."
Buffy was crying softly and Willow did the only thing she could think of to help her. She put her arms around Buffy, who clung to them, and she started whispering that Buffy wouldn't lose her and that she was in it for the long haul.
As Buffy's sobs calmed down she began to speak though her voice betrayed her fears.
"Wills you can't make those promises."
"I can and I will. I love you but you're right."
Buffy sadly nodded her head thinking that Willow had seen sense about their relationship.
"We can't know what's gonna happen. Either one of us could get hit by a bus tomorrow and it would all be over, but know this: For as long as I can be, I will be with you and nobody is going to mess with that you hear me? Nobody!"
As Buffy contemplated what willow had said she began to think about her life after leaving Hank the first time. She wanted that life back, but she knew that she was going to need help and she had a feeling that Willow, Giles and Xander would be the three to help her get through all the shit she had in her head.
Looking up at her girlfriend, she smiled.
"Your bossy you know that? I have a lot of stuff going on in here" pointing at her head "and it might take a while to sort through but I really want you with me when I do." The answer to the semi question she got was Willow's next three words.
"I love you."
They both climbed back into bed with Willow wrapped tightly around Buffy and they slept with Buffy having no more nightmares for the rest of the night.