Back to the Middle
by Sailorgirl
Part 2
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Title - Back to the Middle 2/?
Author - Stewie
Pairing - B/?
Rating - PG
Summary - Continuing from part 1. It's the same night and Willow's
thinking things through as well.
Disclaimer - see part one
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How do I make things right again? No...not the time for this.
I'll think about that later. Right now I need to meditate.
Ok...relax...breath...clear your mind Rosenberg...arg...how am I
suppose to find the calm within when my life is the very opposite of
calm, its not even eye of the hurricane calm...it...ok...that line
of thought really needed to end. What I really need to think about
is how to fix things with Buffy. I've been back for a month now and
we still haven't really talked. I'm just not sure if I can just
start a conversation with her like all is of the good between us.
The only time we really talked is when I first got back and that was
just the usual 'how've you been?' and ' I'm glad you're home', type
of deal. I know she's probably feeling about the same as I am but I
still can't seem to put my feelings into words when I'm around her.
And I'm still trying to get use to the house being so empty.
That was my biggest adjustment when I got back...the gang was so
scattered. I'm so use to people coming and going it took a few days
to get use to the quite. But I think it's better this way for
now...I need this time to get back into the swing of things. At
first I didn't think I could do it. I was feeling sorry for myself
and I thought I was in the way and I didn't think Buffy wanted me
around because, hello, I tried to kill her. Then me and Faith (yeah,
I know, Faith) we started having our nightly talks and she told me
about how crazy Buffy went after Giles took me away, I'm not to sure
about what went down between Giles and Buffy that night but Buffy
still won't talk to him. Anyways...Faith told me how guilty Buffy
felt about letting me down and stuff and how she cry herself to
sleep and a lot of other stuff that I would of never guessed Buffy
ever doing especially over me. Our conversation pretty much ended
with Faith telling me to get over it, in a more polite very non-
Faith kind of way.
Surprise of the decade award goes to Buffy and Faith doing the
cohabiting thing...without killing each other...me and Faith getting
along without killing each other, I'm still trying to wrap my mind
around that one. But Faith and I have really been getting along
quite nicely. One night after a bit of 'Jack', she told me about her
feelings for Buffy, seems to be a recurring theme with this group. I
told her I felt the same about the buffster and she said she knew
that since high school. Buffy...it always seem to come back to her
doesn't it? As much as I hate to admit this, even when I was with
Tara it was all about Buffy. That was one of the major reasons we
broke up. And now there's Faith and all her sexiness that's more
than impossible to ignore. I am one mixed up girl...
"For someone who's suppose to be meditating you sure seem to be
thinkin' pretty hard." Uh oh...busted. "...and why are you
doing the
meditation thing so late?"
"It could be because I was thinking pretty hard, and I couldn't
sleep so I thought this would help." I don't even have to look at
her to know that she's probably leaning against the door, with her
hip cocked out, wearing her 'I know something you don't know' smirk.
But of course I look anyway, and what do you know...I was right. "
Why don't you come on in and have seat?" I asked her and as usual
she flops down on my bed, pretty much sprawled out across it. " I've
never seen someone so small take up so much room...not even Xander
takes up this much space." I tell her with a shove and a smile.
" Any other time I'd use that set-up and run with it but I saw
the smoke when I rolled up." She says as she take a more comfortable
position...for me anyway...next to me. " You want to talk about it,
seeing how the peace and quite thing doesn't seem to be working for
you?" A concerned Faith...that's so cute. Where was this Faith the
first time around?
" I don't think we need yet another ride on the Willow Rosenberg
pity train."
" That's true..." She quipped.
" Hey..."
" But this isn't about pity. It's about me caring about what's
going on with you." After a beat she adds " And if you ever tell
anyone I said that I'll give you a taste of what you offered Riley."
There goes that smirk again.
" No worries...your secret's safe with me...for the moment."
" Hey..." Uh oh...I know that look in her eye, I'm gonna pay for
that one.
" Just kidding, you know...jokes. What, we can't tell jokes no
more?" I gonna have to keep an eye on her for the next few days. The
last time she had that look in her eyes she put green dye in my
shampoo. I don't think I need to finish that story.
" No...jokes are good. I even have a few of my own." Something
about that grin on her face tells me I'm in for a world of 'jokes'.
I think its time for a subject change.
"Uh, I know you're suppose to be meeting Buffy on patrol soon so
why don't you do that and when you get back we'll talk."
" Yeah, no sweat." She said as she bounced off the bed. " It'll
give you time to sweat about what color your hair might be this
time." With that parting shot she was gone and so it continues the
saga called my life.
Well I guess I'll try to get some sleep in before she gets back.
The way those two get when they slay together it could be a few
hours before they get back. Maybe Faith will give me the little push
I need to go talk to Buffy.