Mending old wounds
by Lee
Mending old wounds
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Prolouge
Tara sat in her room packing her clothes, it was night time, such a night where her heart was broken on so many levels. She even gave her a trial run. Go a week and we'll see, but she couldn't even do that. Using the same spell on everyone, to make them forget.
Tara walked down the stairs and out onto the porch to see Dawn, she was very sad. Going out to reach a hand, she pulled away and ran back inside. Tara just couldn't cry anymore, so she just walked off. She got permission to stay in the magic box until everything was settled. She didn't even care. She would be gone in the morning before any of the Scoobie would come by, we'll maybe except Anya.
Tara lay in the back room of the magic box, tears running down her face. Pain in her heart, how could she tell Willow about her being pregnant, about how she loved her so much. That she trusted her. She knew the only way she would be able to have this child without Willow knowing would to be running away. She wouldn't, she wanted her child to know Willow.
"So what are you going to do?" Xander placed a comforting hand on Tara's shoulder, Tara looked at him with sad eyes. What could she do, what more could she say to Willow to make her understand.
"I don't know Xander, I love her so much, but obviously she doesn't love me enough to stay clear of magic's. You saw what happen last night, she made us all lose our memories. She could have got us all killed." Tara was flipping out now, more then she had ever done before. She wanted to scream, she wanted to cry, but she wouldn't.
"You should stay with us, you know until you can until you get your dorm room settled." Tara shook her head at Anya's comments, and just smiled.
"No, I got some money left and the people at UC Sunnydale said my dorm room is still available and I can move back in tomorrow."
"So one more night at the Magic Box hotel?" Tara nodded and hugged her two friends .
"I have to get to class, but I will be back later tonight. Much later when all the Scoobie are tucked into bed."
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The night Tara left Willow sitting with her back against a wall, crying feeling so bad. She needed help, but she denied it all. She refused to admit she had a problem, she denied she need guidance. Her magic was a problem and she needed to get it under control, Buffy wouldn't help her. That's what she thought anyway. She just got back from Heaven, which she caused. Pulling her friend out of heaven was a great self-esteem booster.
Willow walked into her and Tara's bedroom looking around she couldn't help but cry as she walked around the room looking at empty spots where things use to be. Finally it really did hit her. Her love was gone and there was nothing she could do about it.
"Hey." Willow looked up from her book, she was reading to keep her mind off of everything.
"Hey buff, about tonight..."
"Nah, its alright, well I heard about what happened. I, I'm sorry." All Willow could do was nod, if she spoke she knewthe tears she was holding back would escape.
"Willow..." She looked up. "...Please don't hate me." Tears were in buffy's eyes now, a sting of hurt struck Willow.
"Me hate you, no Buffy I could never. I thought you would be the one to hate me..."
"Never Wils, I could never hate you." Buffy sat next to willow and the two engulfed in a giant hug. "I love you Wils, I could never hate you."
"Love?"
"I loved you for so long Willow. Your my best friend, but I can't be with you until you can keep your magic under control." Gently wiping a tear away from Willow's face Buffy placed a gentle kiss on her lips. "And by then, You might even get Tara back. I know you love her. I will never get between that." Buffy stood up walked out of the room. She refused to break down in front of her best friend.
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~three months later~
"Willow we have to talk." Willow turned in the halls of US Sunnydale to see Tara behind her, tears in her eyes. Willow knew it was important so she excused herself from the conversation and followed Tara to a near by bench. "Sit down, I don't want you to pass out on me."
"What's the matter?"
"Willow, I'm pregnant." Willow's eyes went wide. "And before you think anything, I never cheated on you, I never slept with a man... its ours." She said in a whisper.
"Um, Tara the last time I check you needed a penis for that kind of thing to happen." Tara shook her head and placed Willow's hand on her tummy. "It kicked."
"I'm five months willow, I knew before we broke up. I just couldn't bring myself to tell you." Willow pulled away from Tara and headed down the hall, leaving Tara in tears once again...