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Subject: [buffyloveswillow] Some fic for the list: Finding the Fun...PG
Date: Mon, 22 Nov 1999 01:57:21 GMT
Finding The Fun
By: Janine
jbstories@xxxxxxxxxxx
(Obviously this is B/W romance. PG. Enjoy)
Willow sat on her bed in the room she shared with Buffy and silently
starred
at the wall. Buffy had gone out to patrol about an hour before so she was
alone in the room. There the slightest sound of music filtering into the
room from the room next door but Willow hardly noticed it.
It had been a week since Oz had left town. Just picked up and took off.
Had picked up and left her. The first few days after it happened Willow as
crushed, the mere act of breathing had been hard for her. She hadn't
wanted
to eat anything or do anything. But now a week had passed and she found
that she wasn't feeling like that anymore. In fact she found that she was
feeling fine. And that's what confused her. Her wolfy had gone…but she
was
alright with it. What was that about?
Snapping out of it, she turned her head towards the door. No Buffy. She
knew that her friend had to out and protect people and stuff, but she
really
wished that would get back. There wasn't anything really pressing that she
had to discuss with Buffy, no earthling shattering news to deliver, she
just
missed her and wanted her back home.
Being an only child Willow had never know what it was like to have share
things with another person until she and Buffy had become roomies. And she
discovered that she absolutely loved it. They had become so much closer
since they started living together, and as Willow glanced at the clock
again, more possessive she realized.
Finally, about ten minutes after Willow had started her door watching
campaign Buffy opened the door and came into the room grumbling.
"Stupid vampires think they're so tough," Buffy said throwing her bag over
onto her bed. "Look at my shirt, it's ruined, deceased, gone, to be buried
and not rise again. I tell you Will it would make my job so much easier if
they'd just come back to life BEFORE they're buried. I hate being covered
in maggot!" Buffy continued before finally turning around to face her
friend. "You okay Will?"
"Yeah…fine…just you know working on the whole 'centering my being' thing,"
Willow responded quickly.
"Are you sure?" Buffy asked moving over to Willow's bed and taking a seat
on the end of it.
"I was just…."
"Thinking about Oz," Buffy said finishing her sentence. She practically
spat out Oz's name. In another time and place the way she said it almost
would have been funny.
"Sort of…I mean I guess he's in there, with other people. I guess my mind
was just wandering," Willow responded. "You look tired," she continued
placing her hand on Buffy's knee. Buffy pulled away.
"I'm all dirty," Buffy said standing up and brushing off the part of
Willow's bed she had been sitting on.
"Covered in maggot," Willow added nodding along. "Don't you hate that."?
"Probably only you would have an idea just how much," Buffy said smirking.
There were so few people you could discuss being covered in maggot with.
"Listen," Buffy continued a moment later as she walked over to her closet.
"I'm going to go take a shower, but when I get back I promise we're going
to
do some wild and wacky. In other words funny filled of fun filled fun…ny,
fun…well it's going to be fun," she managed to get out. Despite what
Willow
said Buffy still felt that she could use some cheering up and she was just
the Slayer to do it.
"Buffy," Willow started to protest. She knew that Buffy was just doing
this
because she thought that she was upset.
"No, I have declared that there shall be fun and fun there shall be.
They're be fun if I have to kill myself making it," Buffy interrupted
grabbing her robe.
"Alright," Willow said sighing, still thinking that Buffy would be better
off just going to sleep. She knew how hectic her friends schedule was and
didn't want to make it any harder for her.
"Try to contain you excitement Will…you don't want to hurt yourself," Buffy
responded walking over so that she was standing in front of her. "Hey,"
Buffy said reaching down and placing her hand on Willow's shoulder. "It'll
be okay…I promise."
"I know," Willow responded.
"I'll be back ASAP," Buffy said stepping back and heading for the door.
"Before I go remember this…" Buffy continued.
"What?"
"I love you," Buffy said.
"I'll remember," Willow said smiling. Buffy smiled back.
"Good." Then she was out the door.
Willow walked down to the common room packet of microvwavable popcorny
goodness in hand. If they were going to stay up having fun they could as
well be having fun on a full stomach. The common room was empty which was
okay with Willow. Popping the bag into the microwave she set the timer and
flopped down into one of the nearby chairs and smiled. She was suddenly in
a good mood again. But, she thought to herself, Buffy seemed to do that to
her.
A few minutes later Willow heard the ping of microwave and headed back to
their room. Placing the popcorn into a bowel she lay down on her bed to
wait for Buffy.
It was sunny out, and warm. Willow could feel the rays of the sun warming
her skin. She could hear the sound of water in the distance and headed
towards it. There was a river. She smiled and rolled up the legs of her
pants and lay down so that her feet were just barely touching the water and
looked up at the sky trying to pick out shapes.
A moment later she felt a tingling at her ankle. Someone was kissing her
ankle, and she smiled again but did look down. The kisses moved up the
bare
part of her leg then stopped when they reached her pants. There was no
contact for a moment and she was tempted to look down but she didn't.
Then a moment later she felt the lips on her again, this time on her hands,
moving all the way up her arms. Then they were on her neck, then her
checks, then they were pressed against her lips. They were warm and soft
and Willow opened her mouth willingly and the kiss deepened.
They continued in that fashion for a moment before the lips moved away and
over to her ears.
"Remember one thing…" the voice said.
"What?" Willow heard herself ask. The voice was faint and whispery but she
knew she knew it.
"I love you," the voice responded. Willow gasped and moved so that she
could the see the person whispering to her.
"Buffy…" Willow said softly. And Buffy smiled and leaned back down
bringing
their lips together.
Willow jerked up violently, and breathing heavily. "Uh oh," she said
softly
before letting her head drop back to the pillow.
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Buffy rested her head against the wall of the stall letting the water fall
over her. Nobody else was in the washroom for which she was eternally
grateful. As the spray continued to beat over her skin she sighed. The
shower wasn't helping things any. As had come to shower as much to clear
her mind as to actually get clean, and while she was now considerably
cleaner her head still wasn't clear. She kept on seeing the smile on
Willow's face after she had told her that she loved her.
She pushed away from the wall in frustration and ran a hand through her wet
hair. She wasn't going say that the feeling she found herself dealing with
now were new or were a surprise because that would a lie. She had felt
them
growing for years, she had been aware of them for years…it was just the
direction that they had gone in that had surprised her.
Throughout the last three years there had been a love growing between
Willow
and herself. It had been formed through mutual experiences, and shared
hurt
and joy, and a genuine affection for each other. Willow had become one of
the most important people in her life. Even when she was still with Angel
she had prayed that she never had to choose between the two of them,
because
for all of talk about how much in love she was with Angel, she couldn't
have
been completely sure that she would've picked him.
And now, now the love and affection that she had felt for Willow in the
past
had grown, and evolved, and changed into something with an intensity that
not even she was really prepared for. It had turned into passion, it was
love and passion and it was all for Willow.
Willow who could never, ever, find out how she felt.
Buffy turned off the shower and got out. She had been away for too long
already. She had told Willow that she would be quick, and she had been
anything but.
==================================================================
Willow paced around the popcorn bowel reviewing her dream.
"This is bad, this is very bad," she muttered to herself. "As if falling
for a werewolf wasn't bad enough, now I gotta go for my best friend," she
continued. Suddenly a lot of things were making sense to her. Things like
why her toes always got all tingly whenever Buffy was around. Things like
why she got a fluttery feeling in her stomach whenever Buffy touched her.
Things like why she would lie on Buffy's bed sometimes when she wasn't
there…she realized it wasn't because she wanted to warm up the bed like she
had told herself, it was because she wanted to close to something
distinctly
Buffy.
Her miraculous recovery over the desertion of Oz suddenly seemed less
miraculous.
Willow heard the door start to open and jumped.
"Buffy!" she said in a squeaky voice.
"Last time I checked," Buffy said breezing into the room. "Will, I really
think you consider my suggestion about switching to decafe… I worry."
"Decafe, to calm be down. As in the opposite of caff which would excite
me…not that I'm excited or anything cause I'm not…excited," Willow
responded.
"I can see that, you're clearly not excited…I don't know what I was
thinking," Buffy responded opening her closet. Throwing her night stuff
onto the bed she started to open her robe.
"What? What are you doing?" Willow asked. The squeaky voice was back.
"Getting dressed," Buffy responded shooting a quizzical look back at
Willow.
"Are you going to take it off," Willow said staring at the robe.
"That depends on how much money your offering," Buffy responded with a
lecherous grin.
Willow simply stared at her in horror.
"That was a joke Willow, you can laugh now," Buffy said when she got no
reaction from her friend.
"Oh…yeah…hee," Willow responded though she still looked like a deer caught
in headlights.
"We've definitely got to find you find the fun," Buffy said heading behind
the closet door to change.
=================================================================
"Buffy there are only two of us, how are we suppose to play Truth or Dare?"
Willow asked eyeing her friend doubtfully.
"The same way you play with more people only this way we get more turns,"
Buffy responded thinking that perhaps she should have put more thought into
the fun they were going to have.
"Okay," Willow said in the same doubtful tone as before.
"Okay," Buffy said in a chipper tone. "So…truthfully how good kisser is
Xander?"
Willow sighed, it was going to be a long night.
================================================================
They had finished off the popcorn and were now lying around drinking the
beer Xander had swiped the bar and hide at their place so his mom wouldn't
find it.
"Alright," Buffy said. "Who was the last person you fantasized about
sexually?"
"I can't, you can't, I can't, you can't, I can't…dare," Willow responded
finally.
"Fine, I dare you to tell me," Buffy responded.
"You can't do that, that is completely against the rules, not to mention
ethically and morally unconscionable," Willow responded.
"Fine," Buffy said turning onto her side so that she was facing Willow. "I
dare you to…" she paused trying to stall for time. She needed to dare
Willow to do something that she wouldn't normally do something that…"I dare
you to kiss me," Buffy blurted out before she realized what she was doing.
Damn subconscious, she thought to herself.
"What?" Willow asked alarmed.
"I dared you to kiss me," Buffy said not wanting to back down. "Either you
kiss me or tell me who you last fantasized about."
"But…but….but…"
"If you don't do one or the other it would be morally not to mention
ethically unconscionable," Buffy said.
Willow stared at her for a moment. Either way she was screwed. She knew
that she couldn't lie to Buffy…it wasn't so much that she was resent to the
idea as it was that Buffy would know she was lying.
"Kiss how?" Willow asked.
"Kiss kiss," Buffy responded. She didn't know why she was insisting on
this…but then again she did. This was probably the only the only chance
she
would ever get to know what it felt like to kiss Willow, and she just
couldn't pass up the opportunity. She just couldn't.
"Okay," Willow said moving over to where Buffy was lying down.
Buffy sat up so that they were facing each other. They starred at each
other slightly for a moment then Willow reached over and placed her hand of
Buffy's face. Then she slowly leaned in and brought they're lips together.
It was slow and tentative at first. Neither sure how far they could or
should take it, but soon instinct and need took over and the dare was
forgotten. They moved closer together, and Buffy entered Willow's mouth
with her tongue deepening the kiss. Their hands started to roam each
others
bodies as they sought to get closer together.
Finally, they managed to pull away from each other.
"Well," Buffy said. "That went …which is to say that it…went."
"My feelings exactly about the…going…and how it went," Willow responded.
They continued to stare at each other for a moment. Then Buffy closed the
distance between them and brought their lips back together.
"Buffy," Willow said in between kisses.
"Uh huh," Buffy responded in a half moan.
"I think I found the fun," Willow told her smiling.
"I think we've both found the fun," Buffy responded before they closed the
distance between them once again.
THE END?
By: Janine
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