talking with willow

[C2pattee@xxxxxxx]

dear pat kelly,

i'm so glad you did post your little rumination in why you like btvs. i had
been wondering why guys (and i didn't know you were a guy until this post)
are so into buffy and willow as a couple. i've always assumed that guys get
off on the sexual thing of two women together (entirely your right-so do i).
however, i don't get that creepy feeling from this list that i usually get
from het male porn, for which i am grateful. your piece gave me an insight
into a young man's psyche that i never expected to see, and i thank you for
being so honest and open.

i'm a 58 year old lesbian who's been a romantic all her life. since i've
been single most of that time, i depend on fiction for my romance fix. i get
a kick out of this list because you're all (mostly all?) very young people
writing about other young people, a perspective not often available to those
in my age bracket. i also, and here's my old schoolmarm side coming out,
think it's great that young people are writing at all. check out paragraphs
70-75, 'a different kind of author and a different way of writing' in my xena
fanfic article for a lengthier description of my positive opinion of all of
you.

<A HREF="http://whoosh.org/issue40/pattee1.html";>xena fiction article by
cpattee</A>

or

http://whoosh.org/issue40/pattee1.html

rodrigo asked us to fill out a survey about who we are, and i realized the
description of me, and a picture, is at the end of that article.

in sisterhood, christine pattee


<<Message: 1
Date: Sat, 8 Jan 2000 11:42:18 -0500
From: "Pat Kelly" <bandits@xxxxxxxxx>
Subject: Talking With Willow

Okay. This is...well, I don't know why I wrote it. Don't even know why I'm
posting it. But here.

TALKING WITH WILLOW


(Writing you and your friends has become second nature to me. I just love all
of you so much and.I focus on Buffy/you relationship fics now. Not
necessarily because I'm a huge fan of slash, because I'm not, and not because
I'm a male.

(You two have a closeness and a potential that I'm drawn to. A friendship
that's survived everything imaginable. I don't know what that feels like, and
I'm sure a lot of other people don't either. You don't get closeness with
guys very often. I also don't know if I'd want to go through everything you
have. But that's beside the point.

(Why I write what I write, is to try and tap into that closeness, that
feeling, so maybe I can experience it too. Go on the ride with you. I don't
make really good things happen to you, or bad things, because I think other
people will have a good read. I do it for myself, to twist my own emotions. I
always write for me. That's the only way I can be happy about what I produce.

(I'm young, just about to turn eighteen, and I know I've got a whole,
hopefully long life ahead of me. And yours is the kind of relationship I want
to have. To find a girl who just clicks. Doesn't necessarily have the same
personality or interests, but is someone I can open up to without
reservations.

(Is that just a hopeful dream? I don't know, maybe it'll become reality. But
right now, as much as I may like certain girls, I don't date. High school is
the dating time, but usually doesn't go anywhere. College is coming up, and I
promised myself that this is when I'll break out and start looking. Maybe
I'll find my Buffy. Or my Willow.)
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