My Salvation
by Bwriter
Part fifteen
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Part fifteen
She'd had enough. This was killing her and she had to do something about it, even if it turned out badly. She dressed and waited downstairs for Willow to finish her shower and idly flipped through the TV channels, not really watching what she was seeing.
She didn't have to wait long. Soon Willow was showered and dressed and in the kitchen making breakfast. Buffy rose and followed her.
"Will? Can we talk?" She sat at the kitchen table and waited for Willow to join her.
"Sure what's up?"
Buffy took a deep breath and tried to collect her thoughts so they came out clear and not jumbled.
"We need to talk about us. Most of the time it's great, perfect even, but lately I've noticed that you don't... you seem to keep me at arms length. What is it? Are you... do you want to break up with me but just not know how to tell me?"
This was her main fear, her and Willow breaking up and Buffy loosing not only her girlfriend but also her best friend.
Willow looked shocked at the question.
"NO! God why would you think that?"
Buffy looked at her trying to gage if she was as shocked as she seemed. She decided that she'd give her the benefit of the doubt for now.
"Will everytime a kiss goes a little further you freeze up and run for whatever distraction you can. Last week it was a class of juice, this morning it was a shower. I just need to know where I stand with you because right now I'm getting the impression that you don't want me in you're life let alone your bed."
"That's what this is about? Sex? Well sorry I'm not as gung ho about it as you seem to be. I'm new to all this you know!"
Buffy paled, hurt beyond anything that had ever happened to and hurt her before. Willow saw the colour drain from her face and thought over what she had just said and her eyes got huge. She jumped up and got to her knees in front of Buffy who was looking anywhere but her while trying desperately not to cry again, it seemed like all she had been doing for the past year was cry.
"Baby, I never meant that like it sounded. I just mean that sex is a very big step. I don't want to rush you into something your not ready for and the same goes for myself. It doesn't mean that I don't love you or want you because I do, so much; it just means that I think it's worth waiting for ya know? I want it to be right, and it will happen when the time is right."
Buffy's eyes finally met Willow's and she couldn't keep her tears from falling any longer. Pulling Willow into a hug and burying her face in her neck she breathed in the delectable scent of her girlfriend, calming her nerves as she did so.
Willow's arms came around Buffy and the two stayed like that for long minutes until Buffy pulled back and raised her lips to Willow's in a gentle kiss.
"I'm sorry. I love you. I just went a little crazy when I thought that maybe you'd come to your senses and were about to dump me and all the baggage I have with me."
"Never gonna happen. I love you. I don't want you to doubt that and if it means that much to you, hell I'll make love to you right here and now."
Buffy gave her a watery smile before bringing their lips together again in another kiss and standing.
"I can wait. I do want to make love to you but, and I think you know this, I still have some reservations about me and sex, but with you... I trust you and I know that when it happens that it'll be well worth that wait and then some."
"Darn tootin'"
"I'm gonna head home and pack. I'll see you in a few hours." Buffy's words belied her actions, as she never moved.
"How long is the trip again?" Buffy looked at her girlfriend knowing that she knew exactly how long she would be in Ireland for but humoured her anyway.
"Giles and I leave tomorrow and get home in two weeks. And before you start about me leaving you to go off to a foreign country, just remember that I did try to get out of it but Giles really wants to go and see some relative he, we, have over there and he wants me to go. He thinks that a break is just what I need, get away from everything ya know?"
Willow nuzzled her face into Buffy's neck and let her hormones carry her away. Buffy let out a whimper when she felt Willow sucking at her pulse point. She raised her arms and pressed Willow's head closer with one and with the other she used it to travel the length of her girlfriends back. They both became lost in the other.
Willow's hands were messaging Buffy's ass through the sweats she wore and Buffy's were touching the skin of Willow's back as they had moved her top out of the way. Abandoning Buffy's neck, Willow moved her kisses up 'til she reached her mouth.
The kiss was explosive. Both girls were moaning as tongues battled and hands caressed. They were interrupted by the telephone. Both sprang apart like they had been electrocuted, each panting heavily. Without conscious thought Willow answered the phone.
"Hel-lo" She was still out of breath from the kiss.
"Willow dear is that you?" Willow eyes got really big.
"Mom!" This was squeaked as she tried hard to control her breathing.
"Why are you out of breath dear?"
Thinking fast Willow answered.
"I ran down the stairs to answer the phone."
There was a pause.
"Dear you have a phone in your bedroom."
Willow by now had a deer-caught-in-headlights look on her face and Buffy was snickering from the chair she had all but fallen into to.
"Yeah, he he. I forgot? Anyway what's up?"
"Your father and I have decided to prolong out stay in Spain for a few weeks, so we won't be back next week like planned."
Buffy saw Willow face drop and was by her side and holding her hand before Willow answered her mother.
"Yeah okay thanks for letting me know. Bye Mom." Willow didn't wait for a reply and set the receiver down.
Turning to Buffy she told her what her mom said. Buffy knew the abandonment Willow felt by her parents and though that maybe it was just something that happened when you had kids. The parents either never noticed you or noticed you too much for her liking.
Pulling her into a hug, Buffy kept it loose, so as not to flare up any of the passion from before.
"New plan. Wanna help me pack?"